i found a box that i had put all my things that i had found important in my life. i don’t like looking back and seeing everything because it reminds me that none of that stuff is important anymore and i should not hold onto it because i have nothing to look forward to and i’m too afraid of looking back on all my painful memories… i can’t remember a time when i was extemely happy….
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So change the meaning of the box. You found a box of things worth remembering. memories of a good time and although it may be painful and you really don’t want to you look at these things all the time because now they stand for your hope. you want things to be important to you again even if it isn’t the same. But maybe that’s a good thing because if you can’t remember a time where you were extreamly happy then maybe that time ddn’t come yet. so when you move foward because you have hope that time around your happiness will find you.
I feel your pain, im planning my exit, have been for awhile, im beyond tired is this fucking life and we all have a choice to deal with it or die, frankly i wish my attemps in the past succeded but they didnt, i cant wait to die, have no problems,bills,money issues or everyday bullshit.. im antisapating my exit, im 26 but have been through enough to be 70 years old mentaly. whatever u choose, i hope u fine peace