hi.
was just hoping someone out there might actually be able to help me.
I was in the navy was injured during the intense training.
they made me spend 4 months in there hospital with no friends or family.
i had surgery to both legs and now suffer from extreme chronic pain depression anxiety and chronic fatigue syndrome.
i cant do any of thethings i used to love because of the pain.
this has also caused my boyfriend to not be able to handle me anymore.
i believe his about to give up on me and when he does it will be the end of me as he is the only thing that has kept me here.
does anyone understand
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I don’t think anyone CAN understand the type of pain you personally are experiencing. I know no one can understand mine. But I believe a lot of people can understand a pain that’s very close to yours.
I can’t do any of the things I used to love either because of my pain. My pain has a lot of names but I like to call it my tape. The mixed tape in my head that won’t let me really enjoy anything. It plays softly sometimes, but lately it’s been really loud and has enjoyed kicking me while it’s down.
This has been part of the reason my boyfriend broke up with me two nights ago. He ‘couldn’t handle it’ and my depression was ‘weighing him down’. Now I’m not only jobless (been on medical leave), but homeless as well.
He has been my own reason for getting better, for trying.. and now it’s gone. I understand that feeling.
I have scoliosis and I guess one of the very VERY small stars in my black sky is that I haven’t had a flair up since I stopped working. So I while I don’t have the physical pain now, I do know what it’s like to have both physical and mental pain at once.
How long ago was the surgery? Are you on pain medication? Have you had a sit down talk with your boyfriend about anything? Have you tried discovering new things to love and do? I haven’t been very successful in the last part but I’m trying to write again (even if it’s sad rantings, at least it’s writing).
I don’t usually comment – I never feel as if I have anything good to throw in – but I felt the need to comment on your post. I hope I helped. Can help. Even if it’s a little.
Yes, I can.
I’d been there and all I can say is that it does hurt.
But don’t let it break you.
The hurt will hurt.
And over time, it hurts less.
For the time being, as you are military, please try to make arrangements to speak with a military Psychiatrist, OK? They ought to be able to help with something for the depression and pain. Our tax dollars have been paid to make sure that services would be available for you when you need them.
I would be honored that my tax dollars would help you now.
Hey the surgery was a couple yrs ago now. Yes I take strong pain medication when I need to.
Yes we sat down few days ago and it ended up just him telling me he can’t handle this anymore I’m ruining him. Its really hard to find new things to love doing because I love surfing and all outdoor activities and they hurt so much now. My legs can’t handle it.
Iv tried seeing professionals but they just seriously don’t help.
And also because military is a government thing they arnt helpful at all even though they make out they are.
and just to add to everything my boyfriend of nearly 3 yrs broke up with me.
I think this will be my last day because i cant handle this feeling any more!!