I have had the idea on my mind since I was like 12 (I’m 33 now). The things that always kept me from going were the same as any one else’s (i guess): hurting those I leave behind, to fail the attempt, going painfully or scared. I mean, most of the ways of doing this succesfully are either extreme, violent, creepy or too painful. I know it sounds like I’m the afraid one, and maybe that’s partly it, but also, I can’t get off my mind the fact that someone will find me, and someone will tell my people how i went, so it’s already tough to find out someone you care about ended his own life, so why make it even worse by having them picture a nasty image of horrible death?
By reading other posts I see that a lot of people are looking for a way to make it easy to themselves when they go, and I’m not asking for tips here, I wanted to share what’s on my mind, and I think that despite how hard it will be anyways, we can always try and make little a little easier for those who remain. We’ll never get them to understand what it feels like to be wanting to go this badly, and for so long, but that doesn’t mean we don’t still care about them.
Regards
-Moonch-
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When it comes down to suicide, loved ones don’t care about which a method was used or how messy it looks. It just hurts them that their love wasn’t enough to stop the pain. It just hurts them that someone they loved was in so much pain that they couldn’t live.
To be honest though, I’d only start to be worried when you’re not scared about ending your life because then it’s more than a possibility, it’s an option.