Can’t stop

I hate my life so much, everytime something good happens its gone in a flash, looking back all I remember feeling is sadness and depression, so many times I’ve been desperate to end it all, I just can’t because it would devestate my family, the only people who actually do love me. I’m just so miserable all the time, I don’t think I can do this much longer, it hurts all the time, I constantly feel like bursting into tears and its as if i’m powerless to stop it, i love someone and they cheated, i took them back now it seems they might not even love me, i just know all i’ve got to look forward to is heartache and depression, i’m in so much pain i really just want to die, i know everyone has problems but i’m just not strong enough, i don’t wanna wake up because i know the next day will just be more tears and wishing it would end. I just can’t do this, nothing is worth this much misery,  nothing, I know I won’t do it, I just needed to write this out, I’m so sick of pretending to be happy and not care. Thanks for reading this if you did, it just feels good to say it