I will cry myself to sleep tonight again like I have been doing for the past couple of months. Been hurt a lot this past month. I just wish any of my friends would give me a hug out of the blue and tell me that everything is going to be ok. I would probably break down and cry my heart out if that happened. It never does, though. I’m so sad inside that I can cry so easily. It’s like my emotions are a pot of water spilling over. Sometimes I ponder when I was last happy. I honestly don’t know. But I have to slap on the happy face for everyone else. I am always there for my friends, but when I need someone they aren’t there. I’m trying my god damn best at this, but I don’t know what to do anymore. What I wouldn’t give right now to have someone hug me and tell me it’s ok while I spill my heart out. I do that for them…why can’t they do it for me? Why do they shut me out when I need help?
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i know how you feel it feels like nobody cares
my friend, go see a therapist, if it’s an early stage of depression, he can do wonders and make you feel really good. Don’t give up or lose hope!
i know how you feel too.
i’m always there for my friends because i love them so, so, so much, but it’s like they don’t see that i’m not okay, or they don’t want to get involved or something.
wish i could hug you, i also wish someone would hug me out of the blue.
I also know how you feel.
*hug* it is gonna be okay!
Thanks Darko. It’s nice to know I can relate to someone. It fucking hurts