i think that sometimes, i no im still young but theres already alot i have messed up and that has been messed up. i dont think about it mostly but the feeling is there, i think if i think about it ill mess up the future and the present aswell, i have to live now as it were because then is gone completly
I think your going to be ok. Your on this site fairly often and people have different reasons for being here. Do you think that it creates a psychological barrier, a reminder of everything that’s wrong.
This site prevents you from moving forward? I will be honest with you, I’ve become so lonely that this provides me with what little opportunity I have to become involved in conversation. I’ve really isolated myself. What I’m saying is that does knowing that you spend a lot of time on suicide sites make you feel inadequate.
abit, maby im not sure but i get lonly. and i dont really hav any friends that live near me whoi get me and who i can hang around with so that makes me feel lonly
I need to get a life really but I’m not happy here. I don’t like the people and theres nothing to do. I’m just tied to my job. I’ve been applying for jobs in another city but I have not had any luck.
I don’t think I’ve had good friends as in people I trust since university. They are more acquaintances. I have strong moral principles and if someone does something I don’t agree with I will stop hanging out with them. It’s difficult to find decent people.
People think I’m a useful person to know but it’s never about the person. If I had a friend, it would not be because of what they could do for me, the contrary.
I think i was around 15/16. It’s changed a lot over the years. I’m not the same now as then. I feel that I’ve lost a lot of my ability. I’m consistently indifferent as opposed to having good days.
Yeah. Tired, slow and scatterbrained. When I was younger my memory and ability to think on my feet was outstanding. Over the years that has diminished. I don’t recognise myself anymore. I had an amazing sense of humour, I looked good. Now I just feel useless. No matter what anyone says or how they try to help, it makes absolutely no difference. I also have other issues so it’s not straightforward.
No. I might feel more secure but the only conceivable way that I can get what I want is with medication that works better. I’m working on that. But when I don’t take well to It, it takes a long time to recover. After I stopped taking Duloxetine, I wasn’t the same for months.
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Weeping is never a good idea
i washed it with vodka, it just looks slimy for want of a better word lol
You will be fine. Vodka??? Haven’t you got any antiseptic cream.
no, vodkas supposed to disinfect right? i think its just going to leave a biggsh scar, idm about that.
I would have been inclined to drink it and worry about the consequences afterwards
lol i took a few swigs.
I didn’t think you cut. Was it intentional.
it was intentional. i had not cut for a good long while, yesterday was just a slip up in mission “stop cutting” lol
Have you still got the purple hair
of course i have, i only got it done last week 🙂
Do you think that it would have helped if you had talked to someone
yeah, i had gone just past the point of reaching out to talk to someone tho, i just wanted my release
I haven’t read any of your posts so I don’t know your situation. I think your very cool. How old are you.
thankyou, im 15, 16 in december
I’m 12 years your senior.
your 27? 🙂
Just turned 28
cool :3 one of my brothers is about that age
I wish I could go back.
go back in time?
Yeah, there is so much that I would do differently.
i think that sometimes, i no im still young but theres already alot i have messed up and that has been messed up. i dont think about it mostly but the feeling is there, i think if i think about it ill mess up the future and the present aswell, i have to live now as it were because then is gone completly
I think your going to be ok. Your on this site fairly often and people have different reasons for being here. Do you think that it creates a psychological barrier, a reminder of everything that’s wrong.
i think ill live till mid tenties at least, i gotta give it a fair go. do i think wat creates a barrier? sorry lol
*twenties
This site prevents you from moving forward? I will be honest with you, I’ve become so lonely that this provides me with what little opportunity I have to become involved in conversation. I’ve really isolated myself. What I’m saying is that does knowing that you spend a lot of time on suicide sites make you feel inadequate.
abit, maby im not sure but i get lonly. and i dont really hav any friends that live near me whoi get me and who i can hang around with so that makes me feel lonly
I need to get a life really but I’m not happy here. I don’t like the people and theres nothing to do. I’m just tied to my job. I’ve been applying for jobs in another city but I have not had any luck.
i hope you do get some look, i have been looking for a job, i dont like where i live its dead
Me too but it’s also nicer to be closer to my family. I’m really alone here.
oh 🙁 i live with my mum and dad
how far away from your family do u live?
It’s about 2 hrs on the train but we see each other every month or so.
do you have any good friends who live nearby u?
I don’t think I’ve had good friends as in people I trust since university. They are more acquaintances. I have strong moral principles and if someone does something I don’t agree with I will stop hanging out with them. It’s difficult to find decent people.
People think I’m a useful person to know but it’s never about the person. If I had a friend, it would not be because of what they could do for me, the contrary.
It’s not that important to me anyway. Just sometimes feel like I’m going crazy.
same, people are difficult things
I’ve read some of your posts
I deleted all mine
lol oh no, what did you think hahah. whay did you delete yours?
I don’t know whether you ever read mine but they were mostly irrelevant nonsense. I was too embarrassed by them. Your clinically depressed…. like me
i am, when were you diagnosed? i have some irrelevant noonsense, i dont mind tho, dont be embarrased by nonsense! 😛
I think i was around 15/16. It’s changed a lot over the years. I’m not the same now as then. I feel that I’ve lost a lot of my ability. I’m consistently indifferent as opposed to having good days.
i went into therapy about 2 years ago, do u kinda feel numb?
Yeah. Tired, slow and scatterbrained. When I was younger my memory and ability to think on my feet was outstanding. Over the years that has diminished. I don’t recognise myself anymore. I had an amazing sense of humour, I looked good. Now I just feel useless. No matter what anyone says or how they try to help, it makes absolutely no difference. I also have other issues so it’s not straightforward.
my memory is awful 😛 do u think wen u get another job or move things will improve?
No. I might feel more secure but the only conceivable way that I can get what I want is with medication that works better. I’m working on that. But when I don’t take well to It, it takes a long time to recover. After I stopped taking Duloxetine, I wasn’t the same for months.
im on sertraline atm, i dont like it to much, it makes me numb but i plan to come of wen iv done college so im jus gonna stick it out tilll then
Anyway… how was your day?
sorry i didnt reply, hope ur ok