Far far away in neverland

She scares me. I want to get away. Far far away in Neverland. Far away from her.
Aren’t mothers supposed to love? Why doesn’t she? Does she, has she ever loved me?
Does anyone love me?
Why am I here. No one cares… My mother hurts me. My brother turns his eye. My boyfriend… Will he come to save me like he says he will? To take me far far away from here?
Is there anyone out there in the world? Who has the capacity in their heart to even care about me?
I wish I would faint again… But this time god please, don’t let me wake up.