I dont even know where to start… I’v been dealing with depression for about three years now. And each day just seems to be getting harder than the day before. I honestlywould not be here if it werent for a couple of friends that help me get thru. I just want to quit so bad! I think of suicide every day. Some days I almost go thru with it.  I try to hide it as best as I can but some days its just so hard!
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KEEP THOSE FRIENDS CLOSE! and really let them know you are thankful for them too. i wish i were in your shoes. i know that sounds crazy, but just having friends who help you get through things can be so rewarding.
“start at the beginning, then keep going until you reach the end, then stop” Have you tried all the traditional treatments? Doctor,counseler,medication etc.
I try to keep them close.but there are other…..problems, with them..
if you can count how many years youve been depressed thats a start towards getting rehabilitated. if its a traumatic event it is alot easier to get help. if you have just always been sad, its alot tougher.
other problems with them? are you able to get support from them?
i havent went to the doctor or anythinglike that.
and iv always just been sad
most of the time.. but its just complicated…
i know what you mean. i was just born sad. and having a bunch of traumatizing events doesnt help either. its just hard to find joy in almost anything. what some would say “is the best day of my life” could just feel like thursday to you. try to get help from a doctor. ssri anti depressants really didnt help me but maybe they’ll help you (normally what doctors prescribe)
I dont really want to go to the doctor.. cause that involves telling parents… and i would rather avoid that.
how old are you? i take it not an adult. well hold out till youre 18 because doctors dont tell parents everything, you know there is patient confidentiality. if its paying for the visit or medicine, you could try telling parents you’ve been having constant stomach aches and cramps. bad ones. the doctor will prescribe anti depressants at first. doctors really dont like prescribing painkillers to kids, especially if its just a “tummy ache”. normally constant stomach aches are due to stress. anti depressants help with this pain. in your case it would help your emotional pain. i really dont recommend lying to doctors (or lying in general, it pisses me off) cause they might not give you the meds, and they might just take a whole bunch of tests, which would cost alot more in the end… i was just throwing a little info out there.
I’v been to the doctor quite a bit cause i miss so much school cause i get so stress out and everything. and it makes me sick. and some days the depression gets so bad that i have to just fake sick so i can stay home cause other wise if i went to school i would blow up at someone and probably get in more trouble. and i get made fun of becaue i miss so much school. theres kids that i swear that they like going to school so they can pick on me/beat me. yes i have been beat by them. they got me in an alley and beat the crap out of me. but then if i stay home its bad cause im alone and thats when the worst happens.
sounds alot like my teen years. i live in one of the top ten murder capitals in america. top 100 and something in the world) ive been stabbed just for being mexican… i dont hold grudges though… i’ve been shot at. just alot of shit… what i did was start learning to defend myself. learn mma or something that interests you. dont be afraid. i am not afraid to die. and if you arent afraid to die that gives you a huge advantage over many people believe it or not. stand up for yourself. if your own worst enemy is you, then what do these pricks in school know? im not saying go shoot up the world and cause harm. but dont let yourself get picked up. because when you let yourself get picked on you feel weak, than you feel worthless, than you dont want to live, etc/ fuck the cycle, next time someone wants to fuck with you, just remember, how can they hurt you? you hurt in ways for more painful than they could ever inflict on you. to me broken bones and stab wounds dont compare to the pain and suffering of depression.
picked on*
far more painful*
sorry i was rushing.
i have been in alot of fights before. That day they got me i did fight back but ten against one isnt very good odds. but ya before the depression i would have never got into a fight. but now i dont even care. i dont care if i die so whatever. but ya ik wut u mean
yea 10 to 1 is bad. i stepped up to 11 guys once, luckily i had a rep for being a bad ass so they ended up showing me some respect and they even ended up being fans of my band. all im saying is dont ever quit. i give you props for taking on 10 guys. shit my dad always talks about how he got jumped by 6 guys with pride, 10 though? thats hardcore considering youre still here.
iknocked two on their ass and hit a third in the face but then they held me down and ya..
ssss, still man thats more than most people can say. ive had homies jumped and never even got a swing in…. damn another gun shot outside. but yea if i were you i would try to fight them one by one. not like in a revenge plot. but like if the time came kinda thing.
ya i know wut u mean.