Hi, I’m Jennifer. I’m 13 years old and it seems that I’m pretty happy. Yes, honestly I’m very happy. But what my friends at school don’t know is that my home life sucks ass. My mum always yells and nothing is good enough for her. Like today she told us she was ashamed of us. She has very high expectations of us even though she knows we can’t achieve them. I do cut myself. But with a safety pin. Not too deep to where it leaves scars but just right do I feel the pain. I feel suicidal. I want to just end my life. But I always second guess myself and just think I have so much more in life. But keeping up is hard. And it kills me. We have a school counselor but I can’t tell her anything because she will tell my family and I can’t have them know. My friends won’t understand either. People don’t know that this happy little girl, is dying inside.
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The truth hurts, but it does set you free so understand this is meant for YOUR well being.
Anyone that speaks negatively to you or creates an unhappy feeling in you is projecting on to you and it has nothing to do with the lovely & fantastic person you are. I don’t know what troubles your mom is having but technically parents are supposed to love, care & support their children. Just know this because you are not responsible for your parents happiness & if your mom can’t reflect back to you the fantastic gal you are, then you have to look inside yourself and realize as best you can that you deserve to feel good and feel happiness inside. It’s not your fault things at home aren’t going great. You’re doing your best. I’d suggest talking to your guidance counselor/principal. You have nothing to be ashamed of. My home life was not great either but I’ve learned to love and care for myself. I hope this helps you. Remember, you’re only responsible for your own happiness, no one else’. You can only be one person at a time…lol. Good luck.
It’s hard looking so happy but on the inside you can feel yourself breaking down. And it’s even harder not being able to let any know that could help. Feeling stuck is a drag!
Hi Jennifer i’m Payden. 13’s a tough age huh? that’s how old i was when i first started becoming depressed. you shouldn’t cut yourself though.. i understand why you do, but it’s only hurting you more.. find someone you can trust that will understand what you’re going through. and i know it’s pretty hard, feeling so stressed out and under pressure from your mom all the time. maybe you should try talking to her and telling her how you feel. tell her how she makes you feel, tell her about your suicidal thoughts. if you think it will help. but you need to tell someone, cause keeping it bottled up inside you is only gonna hurt you more!but you’re very right when you say you have so much more in life! you’re 13, you have so much to look forward to! and i’ve tried to commit suicide myself.. 3 times actually. it’s hard dealing with this kind of stuff every day, when nobody really understands what you’re going through. but just stay strong okay? keep your head up, because if you were strong enough to make it this far, you’re strong enough to make it through anything! stay strong jennifer, and i promise things will get better.