helpless

i feel so alone, like there’s nobody here to help me and I’m just spiraling down and down and nobody’s there to stop me, i feel so alone, so helpless, everybody’s abandoned me, just left me for dead, and that’s exactly what i want to be right now, DEAD, but every time i get serious about killing myself i just think of the pain I’m gonna cause people, how many peoples lives ill ruin just because i wanted to be selfish, so maybe i wont do it now, but if things carry on the way they are, then that wont be enough to stop me anymore, i wish there was an easier way out of all this shit…