I’ve been really depressed lately, and it seems like it came out of nowhere. I’m only a teen and I’ve told my mom and she suggested going to therapy and getting on medication. But for some reason I just don’t have it in me to talk to somebody about my problems. I feel like talking will only make things worse. I feel stupid for feeling like this but these feelings of loneliness and worthlessness just won’t go away. Me and my best friend keep getting into stupid fights that last for the longest time. I always feel like people are judging me about every little thing I do and I never feel good enough for anybody. I have had thoughts of suicide and cutting but I’m always too scared it will be one of those “suicides gone wrong” and I’ll end up living after all. I feel like I have nobody to talk to and there’s really no point in living. My mom is a dedicated christian and I have expectations I have to live up to in order to for us to have a relationship. She constantly compares me to everybody else who does better than me. My grades have been dropping in school and I’ve been considering online schooling but I think that I’d feel even lonelier if I do that; not seeing my friends everyday. I wish I could just be happy but I can’t seem to figure out how to do that. I’m just so sad all the time. Even if I’m out hanging out with people I start to choke up and feel like I could start bawling my eyes out for no reason. I want these feelings to go away and be a happy teenager, but so far I have no clue how.
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is there really such a thing as a “happy teenager?”
I guess not .. maybe i shouldnt have worded it that way. What i meant was i wish i didnt have all of these horrible feelings all the time.. i wouldnt complain if i had them some of the time but everyday is a little overwhelming.
Sorry you are feeling this way, I know how it hurts =( I would try therapy and medication. At least you can say you tried. Exercising also helps. And I would advise against online schooling for the reasons you already said. And if you intend to follow your mom’s religion, it would be great for you to participate in the youngsters groups of your church. Also, you could also talk to the priest himself, if you feel like it. (I am, myself, nonreligious, but I aknowledge religion may help those who follow it without fanatism)
The only reason I dont want to go to therapy is because then i’ll have to talk about every little thing that makes me upset. Some people think this works but personally i think it will only make me realize all of the bad things going on in my life right now. I’d love to get medication but i can only do that if i see a therapist.. something i dont want to do. and the whole church thing has me a little iffy, i believe in god and what not but my church takes things a little too far. thank you for your advice though, means alot that somebody out there cares enough to give me options on what to do
It’s important for you to know there are several types of therapy and some of them you do not need to go in detail about every little thing which bothers you. And that depends of the therapists also. The therapist will need to know a little about the type of problem you have to teach you coping mechanisms. Besides that, you do not have really to go on therapy to get medication. You need only to go to a psychiatrist, which will only see what type of medication you should have.
Well, I would try at least one session in a psychologist and going to a psychiatrist anyway. But it’s up to you.
At least, you’re left with the exercising suggestion: it makes our body to produce natural antidepressants, besides making you healthy as a whole.
I wish you best of luck in this fight, and remember you’re not alone. =)
Read my post. I was there not too long ago. My life in a nutshell was not fun. The thoughts we have are not healthy. and there is nothing wrong with you. Talking to someone will help, but you have to want help to be helped. I love you and I am praying for you! hang in there sweetheart, all will be how it should. keep your head up, chin high, and love the Lord with all of your heart. He is always there. you’re never alone.
You’re not alone, not at all. I have exactly two people I can call friends, and they absolutely hate eachother’s guts. One girl shuns me when she sees me speaking to the other, and the other gets furious when I try to apologize to the first. Sorry if I’m hard to follow, I’m not good at putting thoughts into words. I miss being a little kid (I mean, LITTLE. like six) where everybody was friendly and it was all puppy dogs and daisies. 😛 I don’t know how this is supposed to help you…ehh empathy.
I’m so happy I found this site, all of your advice is really giving me hope that I can help myself, as much as I tell myself that these feelings won’t go away. Thank you guys so much, it really does mean sooo much to me that people like yourselves, complete strangers are willing to read my problems and help me out with them. I have a therapy session coming up next week so hopefully it will help me out. Again, thank you! (: Ill put another post up sometime next week with an update on how I’m doing and if therapy is something I can deal with.
when i said people like yourselves i meant complete strangers, i just reread that and i didnt want anybody to take that the wrong way!