i hate my life

I hate myself becuase i am so unlucky!.. always bad things are happening to me.. i am 39 years old i am not marry i do not have kids and i do not  have a job, i always think things are going to  get better but they do not. i used to have hope i will be a happy person when i get older but things got worst.  i have very little hope that one day things will get better i see people getting married having kids and having nice jobs and i always get screw by boyfriends and i cannot get a job, i do not even have close friends, is so hard to be so lonely been my age is so hard because you do not have friends because they all have happy lifes and mine is miserable… i really hate my life for everything awful that has brought to my life i always been a nice person and this is what i get, just a bunch of awful people i really hate them all but the worst part is that i think that even if you are a bad person and you only come to this life to hurt people nothing happens to you, and good people doesnot get any benefits, is so sad. i really think i am going to kill myslef one of these days because i get so depress from my life been so miserable i am not going to care anymore and i wont want to live anymore to keep been in pain like i am..