i really dont wanna be alive anymore

I too have been obsessing on wanting to die because I feel I can’t go on – for quite a while – due to tragic events in my life.

Yet I must say I realise so many people would be very happy with what I have. Not that that helps at all. Its just that I have known different. I want better and I cant get it. I cant get out of my situation. It suffocates me and who I am. It makes me feel trapped and I hate that. It makes my life unbearable. Though I wont go into all that I feel.

When we get down, then things each day get us more down. Its a spiral. We have to rise about that.

There are so many people who feel like you do and so many have different reasons – their own reasons but many feel like you do but my own situation makes me constantly feel like I want to die because I can’t live the way I want to.

If you do some reasearch there are people living in really horrific situations. There are people being killed and dying everyday.

SO if there is any possible way you can be content or happy – you must control your mind to do that.

I looked at all sorts of ways to end my life because I felt so devastated and it took up all of my time and energy until I could not eat, drink and only cried all the time.

Then people stop liking us because our negative energy brings them down so they shut us out. We are the only ones who can turn things around. There are those who felt the same and rose above it and write self help books and articles to help us.

We need to spend all our time trying to feel better and controlling our minds.

People cant be nice to us if we wont let them!
People cant cheer us up if we push them away, shut them out, expect them to be perfect.
People wont like us if we spend all our time complaining and only thinking of ourselves. We have to live as positively as we can and help to lift others up so they can live easier too.

Yes, feeling down, insecure, mildly depressed are normal. Grief and trauma are natural but we must move out of it and carry on.

Search constantly for links on how to live positively. There are really good links out there and share them with other people who also need to read them. Do that for yourself and other people. That is something you can do.

By torturing ourselves with constant negative thoughts we surround ourselves totally with a thick blanket of negativity until no light or joy can get in. We do this to ourselves. Yes life is difficult, but our thoughts make it more difficult. We have to control our thoughts.

Positive people will always find a way to both make themselves feel better and other people. They are easy to be around.

BUT THEIR LIVES ARE NOT EASIER – they just block out bad things and dont give negative thoughts power.

You are strong – you just have to believe it. We are what we think. We are what we do. We are what we eat. We are who we socialize with. We are in control. WE have to make good things happen.

When we obsess on negative thoughts – THEN WE ARE GIVING THEM POWER and by doing that we destroy our own joy.

Yes, BAD things happen to us, often for no reason. Its horrible but life is STILL sprinkled with good times and good moments. We have to recognize them and open up to absorb any good energy we can.

We have to snap out of it for US and those close to us. WE HAVE TO SNAP OUT OF IT!

Suffering breeds more suffering. Make it stop by controlling your life and your thoughts.

THE TRUTH IS:

We can’t die before our time. We can try BUT REALLY it does not work and makes us feel worse. Many fail at ending it all and with horrible results. They keep trying but they are really torturing themselves. We are really abusing ourselves because we are unhappy. We have to allow ourselves to be happy. We have to give ourselves permission to be happy.

Very few of us actually want to die – we just want things to get better and WE are the ones that HAVE TO MAKE THEM BETTER for US!

The sooner we realise this the better.

We can’t live beyond our time either. This is something many of us feel – wanting to die or wanting to live. So much time wishing things were different.

There are those who are taken before their time and others who suffer terrible painful lives – much worse than us – how do they cope?

Still there are many who enjoy their lives or parts of it! Why is that.

Its all about attitude.

But in truth we have this life and its a gift so we have to turn things around so we can enjoy it.

We can spend all your time trying to find a painless way to die or trying to to
put an end to our life BUT that just makes every living moment hell.

BELIEVE IT OR NOT – no matter how bad things are – YOU ARE CURRENTLY NOT IN HELL. Don’t obsess on the bad things. Don’t torture yourself. Your mind is very powerful.

So many people who try ending it all – end up far worse and it does not succeed. Then they regret it and think they were not so bad off before. You cant turn back time. The past is over – forget it (Except happy memories) – you are here now – what can your do to make your life and other peoples lives easier and nicer.

THAT’S WHAT YOU NEED TO THINK OF and research all of your spare time.

BE A SHINING LIGHT in the dark for others and yourself.

Yes things are bad from our point of view. It seems unbearable if we obsess – just rather banish these thoughts.

Spend 100% of the time making yourself happy – even if other people don’t make you happy! It sounds difficult but there is no point in being your own worst enemy!

We have to like ourselves for other people to like us. We must not let our energy get low or we fall prey to negative thoughts.

Spend every moment trying to boost yourself so you can help others who feel low.

DO NOT even let yourself think about dying. It will only torment you.

When your spirits are low – you are more inclined to fall prey to these thoughts so make absolutely every effort to keep your spirits up.

Your mind is extremely powerful and you ARE what you think. This is how people rise above their situations. Do some research on remarkable people – Often they rose from terrible circumstances.

Use Google to find success stories and ways to be positive and share these with as many people as you can. Be a shining light to drive away dispair and darkness.

The best way to help yourself is to help others.

Spend all your spare time finding ways to be positive!

Also people are more inclined to help those with a postiive attitude

Unless your are absolutely terribly ill, totally disabled, absolutely dirt poor with not possible future (and even then people survive) There are people who are totally unable to enjoy any single part of life at all.

Otherwise you MUST block it from your life. Do only things you like, ignore anything that happens places you like. Elevate what you like to such a high level that you only think about things you like. Each time a negative thought comes into your mind, banish it.

Thinking about dying will only absorb your every thought and prevent you from enjoying anything. In time this will take negative effect on you and manifest in illness in your body. This is your LIFE!!! YOU are in control. Each day is a new day. Make the most of it. GET OUT THERE – let the co-incidences of life enrich you. But you have to be out there for it to happen. Listen to your inner voice.

Think about what you can change to make yourself happy and make others happy.

There are people out there who you will like and situations you will feel happy in.

Visualize what will make you happy! and make it happen!!! Visualising and actioning is the way to enjoy your life. Life is a gift.

Many of us feel trapped in situations that are not to our liking.

Often surrounded by people we can’t identify with.

We all need to find a way to get the best of life that we would enjoy. Try to concentrate only on things that you enjoy. Make lists of things you really like, places you want to go, the type of people you would like to me. Work on building your self confidence and liking who you are or change yourself so that you can like who you are.

Sometime we need to get out there and go somewhere new, do something new, change our image, do things we enjoy, meet new people.

Sometimes we need to change the way we look at things and block negative thoughts and force ourselves to see the good in everything and feel gratitude because so many others are worse off.

Doing good deeds is supposed to make us feel better.

We need to find a way to break out of that situation or come to terms with it and be ourselves regardless.

I think we do want to live but we don’t feel comfortable or able to live how we want to.

We are not surrounded by similar minded people.
We want to express ourselves but feel locked in.
We lack self confidence. We don’t know how to build self confidence as we feel broken down on a daily basis by events that happen.
Often we don’t have finances to live how we would chose to live.

Finding out how to like ourselves, change our attitudes to our situations, feel empowered to make the changes that would make us happy.