No.
You have done your best, and therefore this cannot be called failing! No matter how long you have managed to abstain from self-harm, this is an achievement that no one can take away from you.
It may be worth reminding yourself of just what your achievements in regard to this have been:
How long did you manage to not self-harm for?
Were there times you came close to self-harming, but didn’t do it?
What other ways of dealing with pain / strong emotions / memories etc have a learnt during this time?
Do I feel I have learnt anything from this relapse?
Try to remember that this self-harming is a temporary coping mechanism that has come into play. You can and will move on again from here.
My words: Your not worthless. Everyone has to start over from somewhere again and build themselves up again. Just get back up and talk to someone. c: always prevents me from self-harm. Don’t be afraid either. One does not just simply say “Hey, fuck off i dont deal with emo fags, so GTFO.” Consider yourself as a quarter. Its worthless to its self seeing a hundred dollar bill, but seeing how many people would kill for it just to get a gumball out off dispenser thing. Now on the other hand, pennies are useless xP Anyways i would think of more things to write, but i just got called to dinner.
@TwistedGirl90,
I had not cut in over 5 years, and I did 2 weeks ago. Why did I do it? I’m having a bout of depression, I’m having trouble getting on the doctor’s schedule, and my emotions were just out of control, I was hurting so bad. So I did.
As you are well aware I am sure….doing it is a huge release. Everything kind of gets better almost immediately. As you are also aware, it is a very poor coping mechanism. But sometimes emotions can spiral out of control.
I look at it like quitting smoking….I quit smoking 50 times before I really quit. Every time I would relapse, I would just quit again. Just keep quitting sweetie. You are not worthless. You are hurting.
Try not to cut again, but if you do all I ask is that you make sure what you use is clean and that you clean your wound. Everybody always imagines cutting as this big dramatic moment, but for me it’s more like a surgical procedure. Sterilizing and such.
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Have I failed?
No.
You have done your best, and therefore this cannot be called failing! No matter how long you have managed to abstain from self-harm, this is an achievement that no one can take away from you.
It may be worth reminding yourself of just what your achievements in regard to this have been:
How long did you manage to not self-harm for?
Were there times you came close to self-harming, but didn’t do it?
What other ways of dealing with pain / strong emotions / memories etc have a learnt during this time?
Do I feel I have learnt anything from this relapse?
Try to remember that this self-harming is a temporary coping mechanism that has come into play. You can and will move on again from here.
Src: http://www.pandys.org/articles/relapsing.html
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My words: Your not worthless. Everyone has to start over from somewhere again and build themselves up again. Just get back up and talk to someone. c: always prevents me from self-harm. Don’t be afraid either. One does not just simply say “Hey, fuck off i dont deal with emo fags, so GTFO.” Consider yourself as a quarter. Its worthless to its self seeing a hundred dollar bill, but seeing how many people would kill for it just to get a gumball out off dispenser thing. Now on the other hand, pennies are useless xP Anyways i would think of more things to write, but i just got called to dinner.
ieatnoodlez,
thank you for the post .. the article is actually really helpful and gave me an insight i didn’t even think about.
not going to lie the being a “quarter” and “gumball” put such a huge smile on my face and I even started giggling …
my deepest thanks 🙂
@TwistedGirl90,
I had not cut in over 5 years, and I did 2 weeks ago. Why did I do it? I’m having a bout of depression, I’m having trouble getting on the doctor’s schedule, and my emotions were just out of control, I was hurting so bad. So I did.
As you are well aware I am sure….doing it is a huge release. Everything kind of gets better almost immediately. As you are also aware, it is a very poor coping mechanism. But sometimes emotions can spiral out of control.
I look at it like quitting smoking….I quit smoking 50 times before I really quit. Every time I would relapse, I would just quit again. Just keep quitting sweetie. You are not worthless. You are hurting.
Try not to cut again, but if you do all I ask is that you make sure what you use is clean and that you clean your wound. Everybody always imagines cutting as this big dramatic moment, but for me it’s more like a surgical procedure. Sterilizing and such.