Hello all, I have led a life of suffering from severe abuse as a child to sickness and PTSD insanity as an adult, i’ll be 50 years old in october and it turns out my husband is a crack addict… i’ve always been suicidal, and have worked hard to fight it, but now… i don’t see the point of going on, even tho parts of me want to, to pet my cat, to taste salty food… etc
but what is the point of all this carnage? are religions like Christianity just made up to made us soldier on and keep paying taxes?
all i have to look forward to is my husband beating me up to get crack, and getting sicker and sicker in old age… if anybody can point out a reason i should live, i would appreciate it
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god is a joke theres no such thing
god is a joke theres no such thing
@user12
You make a very compelling case for suicide. In an early post today there was a question posted: whether or not suicide is ever the right answer. My reply is that it is but only for a person that knows that there’s no other way for them.
To be honest I know all the pros & cons to my life intimately for all my life and I still can’t say if its the right choice for me yet, although its still ever much an option. I wish I had better advice for you, but I wish the best for you regardless of what you finally choose.
well i think i am going to choose…. leaving my husband, that may kill me too, but at least i will have tried to live… again….
i do have someplace i can go, but with my mental and physical problems, not so great at taking care of myself…
but for the first time ever, in a life time of trying and almost succeeding to take my life, for the first time, there is a part of me that wants to live… so i think i should move out and pet my cat for a while, i might die a harder death, but i will at least die trying
what do you think?