Sorry i tookme awhile. Then dont live like that! Everyone has to come to a time when they say “fuck it, its my life ill live how i want to!” Just dont care what others think/say its UR life do what makes u bappy…sirry probably didmt help much but its true…good luck Jacob hang in there 🙂
I often make a mistake of being over friendly, not because i try to show off and all. But because i genuinely do care. I go out of my way to do anything for them, but they dont want me. They just use me like a tissue. My mom and sis too dont care about. They want me to just earn for them. I dont find a way out. I have tried avoiding being avoided and what not. Finally i tried committing suicide, which failed. Now im even scared to commit suicide after ma dad committed suicide.
omg, what a serious tragedy. i am very sorry about the loss of your father you seem to be very strong if you still have the energy to care about others in that situation but seriously you are still a just human being and not a supernatural one. Everyone has a limit. Such a loss is serious and everyone deals with it differently. i can’t imagine that your relatives intent to be mean but that they just don’t have enough energy to cope with the situation too. may be they think “we have all gone through the same mess” and everyone deals with it separately instead of getting together and support each other.
>> “I dont find a way out.”
Your whole family has to find a way out – together – not just you.
One tragedy is enough. Is it possible to get them at a table and speak about it or to seek professional help?
i am so sorry for what’s happened to you. I know how it feels to think there’s no other way out. This site however really helps.
You may feel like your mother and sister don’t care but i can assure you they do, they just might not be able to show it due to the devastation of your fathers act (sorry for assuming, let me know if i’m wrong)
you care about other people and other peoples feelings, if that is so dont hurt yourself for the sake of others. Think about how upset those people who are around you would be if you ended it all? I know, im still there, it’s the only thing that’s keeping me alive, and to be honest, it sucks, but i have to live with it because i don’t want to scar my little sister at a young age like i was in my life.
think about how your sister and mother would feel if you were gone. Surely you don’t want to fill them with so much grief and sadness.
i agree with beatenup. maybe seek professional help. it hasn’t helped me or a few others but for some it can work wonders, depends on the person. It’s worth a try. Nobody deserves to feel like you are right now. I just hope you understand that it will get better eventually. it will probably take some time but it will! I know it seems hopeless and like you’re going to feel like this forever but you wont that’s just depression.
i am truly sorry for what’s happened to you and i hope you and your family are able to get through this.
Jacob; you CAN live life the way you want too… but realize this CAN take time. For now; focus on your self! Get a good education, a good job, and then you will found as I have that you CAN live life the way you want too. Make plans; set goals, and you will find one day that you will be at the place you wanted to be.
It’s all about your MANTRA Jacob; if you keep telling your self in your head “I want to die; I don’t want to be here; I don’t want to do what they tell me anymore” That is ALL You will get. But if you start saying “I can do what I want; I will move and be on my own; I will get a Kick ass Girl Friend, or own that car, or have that job, or go to that school” IT WILL HAPPEN!
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live the way others want…
Sorry i tookme awhile. Then dont live like that! Everyone has to come to a time when they say “fuck it, its my life ill live how i want to!” Just dont care what others think/say its UR life do what makes u bappy…sirry probably didmt help much but its true…good luck Jacob hang in there 🙂
how about telling your story to find people who feel like you?
yours beatenup
I often make a mistake of being over friendly, not because i try to show off and all. But because i genuinely do care. I go out of my way to do anything for them, but they dont want me. They just use me like a tissue. My mom and sis too dont care about. They want me to just earn for them. I dont find a way out. I have tried avoiding being avoided and what not. Finally i tried committing suicide, which failed. Now im even scared to commit suicide after ma dad committed suicide.
omg, what a serious tragedy. i am very sorry about the loss of your father you seem to be very strong if you still have the energy to care about others in that situation but seriously you are still a just human being and not a supernatural one. Everyone has a limit. Such a loss is serious and everyone deals with it differently. i can’t imagine that your relatives intent to be mean but that they just don’t have enough energy to cope with the situation too. may be they think “we have all gone through the same mess” and everyone deals with it separately instead of getting together and support each other.
>> “I dont find a way out.”
Your whole family has to find a way out – together – not just you.
One tragedy is enough. Is it possible to get them at a table and speak about it or to seek professional help?
yours beatenup
i am so sorry for what’s happened to you. I know how it feels to think there’s no other way out. This site however really helps.
You may feel like your mother and sister don’t care but i can assure you they do, they just might not be able to show it due to the devastation of your fathers act (sorry for assuming, let me know if i’m wrong)
you care about other people and other peoples feelings, if that is so dont hurt yourself for the sake of others. Think about how upset those people who are around you would be if you ended it all? I know, im still there, it’s the only thing that’s keeping me alive, and to be honest, it sucks, but i have to live with it because i don’t want to scar my little sister at a young age like i was in my life.
think about how your sister and mother would feel if you were gone. Surely you don’t want to fill them with so much grief and sadness.
i agree with beatenup. maybe seek professional help. it hasn’t helped me or a few others but for some it can work wonders, depends on the person. It’s worth a try. Nobody deserves to feel like you are right now. I just hope you understand that it will get better eventually. it will probably take some time but it will! I know it seems hopeless and like you’re going to feel like this forever but you wont that’s just depression.
i am truly sorry for what’s happened to you and i hope you and your family are able to get through this.
Jacob; you CAN live life the way you want too… but realize this CAN take time. For now; focus on your self! Get a good education, a good job, and then you will found as I have that you CAN live life the way you want too. Make plans; set goals, and you will find one day that you will be at the place you wanted to be.
It’s all about your MANTRA Jacob; if you keep telling your self in your head “I want to die; I don’t want to be here; I don’t want to do what they tell me anymore” That is ALL You will get. But if you start saying “I can do what I want; I will move and be on my own; I will get a Kick ass Girl Friend, or own that car, or have that job, or go to that school” IT WILL HAPPEN!