I haven’t been on this in months. I often read peoples stories though. I jut wanted to take the time to blog this. I’ve never heard of anyone in my community taking their own life until tonight. I got the message telling me that someone I had went to school with killed himself. I don’t know why, I don’t know him very well, but I know it happened. It’s hard to believe and just to have this pain in my side is letting me know its real. It’s hard to believe, Rest in paradise my friend, you had the guts to do what I’ve never been able to but always wanted to. I’m just sad it had to be someone as happy and nice as you.
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Hello again. Sorry I know it’s confusing what you’re going through. I’ve been through it a few times and this is what I do: whatever religion that person was, I o to a place of worship. If they were Buddhist I go to a temple. If Christian, I go to a church. And I light a candle or incense or whatever for them and take a moment to remember them. If they were not religious I at least go somewhere nice (beach?) and light some incense or a candle for them. The point is, I take a moment to think about them and wish them well.
I’m a big believer in ritual, because it helps us process. Gives us time to reflect and something to do. Helps us say goodbye. Hope this helps and you have some friends to talk to who also knew him
Isn’t it weird? When the happiest and nicest people you know are hiding their true feelings and then bam, they’re gone and you’re like ‘Why didn’t I see something wrong?’ It happens a lot nowadays…