i first started having suicidal thoughts when i was 16 years old but i desided i was going to hang in there and try to be the best i could but it was never good enough for anybody not even my mother who is the one person that is suppose to love me unconditionally. now four years later, nothings changed im still the same scared girl staring at the bottle of oxy saying that todays the day….. i wish i had it in me to just cut myself or take those pills. if only i had someone i could count on to be there for me. everytime i got close to someone he either cheated on me or lied to me about their status. i go to sleep every night thinking tomarrow will be the day i do it. tonight wont be different.
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send them oxys my way. Theyre 80s right? im messing. it seems like your problems are brought on by relationships. fuck them. they arent worth shit. sometimes its best to take a break from relationships and take time on you. figure out who you are and what you want.
I’m with NewDawnFades…TAKE SOME TIME TO FIGURE OUT YOURSELF. I just got out a a mess of a relationship and I’m happier alone. I miss being “in a relationship,” but being single is better than being in a sucky relationship! I am trying to take the time to be okay with myself, make new friends, and figure out what is important to me. Maybe you could do the same??? Sucky relationships will always suck, and they will make you feel badly about yourself.
thanks, i agree with you also. its nice to have someone. but it definitely feels better to know you can do better. it takes time to feel that way, but man when you do the possibilities are endless.
As nice as it is to have a boyfriend, someone who can give you love with just the touch of his hand..have you ever thought to turn to the Lord? After all, he created you, who could better hold you than him. I am not just saying this as a Jesus pusher, I truly do think it will help. Check out my latest post, my life story, and you will simply see. Everyone is here for a reason, you me, everyone. While I have been in your position, and I have attempted suicide, I also got a second chance. Love is not easy, life is not easy, and the way you are thinking is not unusual. I’d suggest more than anything to talk to someone. See a therapist, anything. No it is not easy admitting something is wrong. But, sweetie, nothing is wrong. Depression is an illness like anything else. I love you and I am praying for you!
I just want to be held. hail satan
thanks for the comment but i am trying the being single thing and if fucking sucks! when your in a relationship even if its bad atleast you have some sort of interaction with another person, at least in my situation losing the last boyfriend i had made me lose most of my friends which i know says more about them than me but still its a shitty situation and frankly im just tired of it
thats because you made him your everything. that was your first mistake. you can never give yourself 100% to someone. maybe 99% but your mind should always stay with you. you just got so used to having relationships that making friends isnt as easy. theres nothing like the beginning of a new relationship. the possibilities, the 1st time everythings, the getting to actually pick who is right for you. youre tired, but not yet exhausted, use what little energy you have and focus on you. your likes, interests, pleasures. just you. you sound very young so i know there is alot to learn for you.
well what else can i say but thanks for taking the time and reading my post, but i just dont see the point in trying anymore.
Go “Ramona Flowers” and move somewhere and start over. No, it’s not Running Away. It’s trying out something new.