Well this week has been hell. i just moved and im so alone.  I so confused about everything. And not only was the week hell i had to go through it without a blade. I lost mine. so a few days ago i burned my right thigh three times. I’ll be honest with you it hurt like a mother. but today i told my parents i was going for a bike ride and i’ll be back in a few. and then i just left. and i rode my bike a cross town went to walmart and bought two red pencils, 5 pens, and a little pencil sharpener. bet you can guess what the last one was for. the other two were just so it wasn’t suspicious. sorry im a paranoid person. and so tonight im going to cut again after like two months. or maybe it’s been a month and a half. well the point is it’s been a while.
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And boy do I wish it were even longer… like never again..! Get well soon.
And boy do I wish it were even longer… like never again..! Get well soon.
yeah thanks i just i don’t know i have this feeling when i cut and i don’t think of all the pain in my mind my thoughts kill me. and cutting helps. but it hurts to see it makes the few people who love me disappointed or they feel like it’s their fault.
Get well soon, L. Try boxing at the gym later, okay?
thanks 🙂 i will
Sounds to me like you need to make art on paper instead of on your arm.
From what i have heard people think im a good artist (on paper) but i lack self confidence and im afraid to shine and show people what i can really do.
I dont get this cutting thing, I just dont understand it, what is it that makes you do it? self hatred, guilt?
I have kept my emotions in all my life and it has made me an ugly person deep down. I never cared about myself or did things for me. It was always “what do you want to do” Me: “Whatever you want to do=D” and so i have all this emotional and mental pain and i just can’t take it anymore so i cut and the physical pain distracts me.