Tried to kill my self today

I put a post of my story yesterday im 16 and i have such a sad life im tired of living and i tried suicide my mom and i had an argument she started yelling at me telling me that i do not consider her and i am mean to her and that i do nothing for her and told me when she dies to not give her flowers or say that i love her cause i never did it in life ( when i always do ) soo i got tired of being claimed and told her do not ever say you miss me when im not there with you I wonder if you would ever miss me if i die and she started crying so was i … i went to the bathroom and locked my self in there with a note saying to her (since i never give you nothing i give you back my life since i never wanted it ive suffered alot my family doesnt love me i get yelled at every day but believe it or not you were the one i love the most i will miss you)  and i put 100 dollars with the note i put a towel on my neck when she started banging on the door telling me what am i doing she actually noticed i was trying to kill my self and she tought i was already dead so she started crying yelling open the door and since i dint she fainted thinking i was dead i started crying thinking if i should let the opportunity of killing my self to go to my mom and i did i open the door and saw her on the floor with alot of tears in her eyes so i woke her up and she told me your alive i was like unfortunally yes i am…. i dont know what to do i dont wanna live no moree a few years ago i almost got raped i was innocent i have a big trauma i dont wanna live in a world where every body acts like they dont care about me i always have a reason to cry IM TIRED OF THIS .. i know someday i might commit suicide maybe everybody would be better without me :-[