Hello everyone,
I know everyone here likes a backstory so here it goes : I am contimplating suicide, and currently at college. I am 19 years old, and been having thoughts like this for awhile. Everything has seem to come to a head, and I don’t know how much longer I’d even like to move on. Before anyone says “Suicide is a solution to a temporary problem”, this statement proves false for me. My depression/OCD is a very permenant problem, one that I believe that I will live with all my  life.  I have tried counseling, medication, weed, alcohol, just about everything. Living with it is not easy, and to be honest I don’t even have the will TO live anymore. I am going to art school, but to be honest my lack of modivation latley has brought me down. Obviously from the expenses of college I will have built up a very large debt to the government for my education..
Okay, enough with my rambling..I’ve got about a months worth of Prozac here. I am pretty skeptical that this will kill me, unless I add another medication to it. I have looked allover the internet and have seemed to find mixed answers? But I am only 120 pounds, and I feel like it will kill me because I am very weak to medication and things like that. Any insight would be great..
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hey pleas wait
you shouldnt kill yourself
i know you feeling its too much but suicide isnt a solution for any temperory problem
you can hold on trust me and nothing lasts forever so how your pain will
you gotta take care of yourself
and i am quite good in handling ocd 1ns so can we please talk here
i promise i will try my best to help you and i wont let you fall
Hey..hi..My name is Kimmie>I hope you will talk to me or someone so that you don’t even try something like that.did ya ever think it may not work?and you’d end in hospital or coma or being able to think, see, feelbut not speak?I was just in an horrific accident and could have died.SUV vs logging truck.It was f’in scary!!don’t think about the future or billsconcentrate on today.just say you’ll wait at least 24 hours>I pray you see this and answer me.Blessings to you,Kimmie
zaccy,
thanks for your kind words, I don’t think there is anything you can do to help me though ):
hey there is a solution you are not able to see because you are in too much stress right now:(
Please do not overdose, it’s the most common and LEAST effective method of suicide. You’re just going to end up sick in a hospital bed worse of then before.
please try to hold on
ok just for few days try to whatever you ever wanted to do and whatever can make you feel better and happy
hey lyndsey8989
yes those bachelor rules are pretty fucked up, they put a huge pressure on the students and taking this pressure to the financial level is just plain nasty. The logic behind this strategy is (in my view) to raise taxpayers as fast as possible. They do not even realize that the transfer of knowledge or in your case the maximization of skills will suffer greatly too (don’t train just be fast). On the other hand i can’t imagine that you won’t pass an art school but that is just an assumption on my side. Let’s just say that you will finally overcome your lack of motivation and pass the school then you would be able to pay them off very quickly but you would have to try. You could still commit suicide at a later point in time but now (willing to commit suicide) what do you have to loose?
why not take a semester off and have some fun, gather new motivation and then re-approach your courses? but enough of my semi smart words.
Before any attempt of committing suicide it is absolutely necessary to know what happens if the attempt goes wrong. It is very possible that you fail because your body is stronger than you thought or maybe you do vomit the medications and are left with an unknown dose. These days medications are designed to be non-fatal but you may suffer some serve and may be permanent (irreversible) injuries which can render you unable to take a second attempt or make the rest of your live even more miserable.
if you still want to go the medication route google “prozac LD50” but be aware that it was most likely an intravenous application (impossible with tablets) which counter effects like vomiting. My best guess is that it most likely will not work.
yours beatenup