when most people get drunk, they do stupid shit and try to sleep with each other
when i get drunk, i slit my wrists til the t3s knock me out
could use company til i pass out
not a good night
wish i wasn’t going to wake up
scared to die
fuck
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I don’t what to say except I hope you really didn’t cut yourself
i actually haven’t yet..
i’m modelling in a few weeks and want clean wrists so i’ve quit til november.
it’s hard though, a lighter to the hip usually comforts but when i’m drunk i often make stupid decisions so i’m scared. wrist-slitting is so much better than hip-burning.
I vote for no disfigurement
rough night though
but this wasn’t a threat, i don’t know why i mentioned what i was going to do.
i just didn’t want to feel alone while i passed out tonight.
thanks for commenting
What happened tonight? You drinking alone or with friends?
I’m happy to chat till you pass out, no need to be alone
i was with a friend, but went home alone
i’d been feeling down all day and my best friend tried to cheer me up with two bottles of wine and some beers at our favourite bar.. i’m glad he admits that he doesn’t understand what i’m going through, and i’m glad he tries to help, but when i’m drunk and depressed, i get scared of myself.
mimito i’m curious about you, you seem so patient and understanding
What am I missing, what is it that makes you want to hurt yourself? Hope you don’t mind my asking?, a lot of people seem to do that and i don’t understand it at all
i hurt myself… out of habit.. or addiction.. i’m not sure. I’ve been doing it since i was a kid, maybe started when i was 12? i honestly don’t mind you asking anything at all.
i think self harm is for some people what drinking or drugs or sex is for others.. it’s a vice and a crutch.
I guess the part I don’t get is the part that feels good. People do drugs to get high. Do people actually get high from self harm?
for me, it feels good
i guess i’m a bit of a masochist
What about the scarring? Does that bother you?
scabs bother me, but once they heal, the scars dont
idk, they kind of do, but i just don’t care
How are you feeling now?
stupid
im having a conversation with my ex, which is a terrible idea.
i used to just be seasonally depressed, but he and i broke up over this winter, and i didn’t get over it right away and didn’t come out of my depression. i sort of blame him for this, even though it’s not actually his fault.
It makes more sense now, break ups can be rough. Your talking to your ex now, or recently?
now
i haven’t spoken to him in a few months, but for some reason i just wanted to see how he was
Calling your ex after a couple bottles of wine can go any number of ways, hope it went well.
thanks for last night mimito
hope you’re well too
<3