People generally post on here because they want someone to listen to what they are saying. There are several people that have now responded. It makes sense to talk to them.
I was in difficulty once and a guy on this site offered to help me. I declined, I can look after myself but can you imagine that someone on here would do that. They weren’t just the empty words. That’s what you call a friend. So, no one is ever alone like you think. There are always people out there.
I have tried to take or accept help, or talk with people…but they all leave. Every single one left me. The only problem I see, is me.
So tonight I want to get rid of the problem. To help others, help me, I need to go.
If they leave you, why would you want them around anyway. There are lots of similar people out there with the same interests. You can make lots of friends if you try a little.
If you go, there will be no one left to give me half-good responses to my posts. Seriously, it does help us to cope, with each reply we get to an entry. To know someone is listening. I don’t know what your home situation is like, but I can tell you that if you go, you will be missed here.
you cant just let life go like that… everyone has problems in life some bigger then others and its up to you to stand up to your problems and make a difference.
True, Duke of Marmalade. It might be too late now though. I have lost the effort and drive for life. I wanted to “feel” something before I go, anything. That’s why I’ve been posting off and on here and other sites. I thought maybe I would have and epiphany or something that would show me there is something different. That people do care about me, Jael, me, not just in passing say hi, how are you? kind of thing.
DoM how are these friends? Virtual friends? Would anyone actually care or care to get to know me? Or is it just a show of kindness? and ear to listen (eyes to read)? Advice to give.
jael, the chatroom suggestion is a good one. it’s really good fun in there and the topics are varied – it’s far from being just depression and suicide chat. also, you can interract with people on a more personal level than you can on here. give it a try.
I didn’t come here to make friends and am not here for that reason at all. Of you want people to talk to then there are lots of people here that will sympathise. I am only in contact with three people outside the site because when you talk to someone everyday for a year I think you kindof know them.
i would say that those percentages are a little on the negative side. maybe i’m just naive. jael, you have to give people a chance to get to know and like you. like duke originally suggested – go and try the chatroom – you can ‘Private Message’ people and get to know them better. by the way, i’m not paid commission for recruiting people for the chatroom. if i was, i’d mention the chatroom in every post i made.
Yes, I understand where you are coming from DoM and OB1. It’s very hard to put myself out there any more. Afraid to try. Afraid of rejection. Afraid of many things.
jael, i don’t make friends precisely because i cannot deal with the thought of one day not speaking to them again. no one gets close to me. i have a deflector shield that is more powerful than the death star’s.
Never be afraid of rejection Jael. What’s the worst that can happen. They say no and you move on, its their loss. I’ve been rejected hundreds of times even though that might be difficult for people to imagine.
Don’t you get an adrenaline rush from anything. I will tell you if Camelot is lying in about 4th or 5th rounding the turn and hits his customary flat spot then I think my blood pressure is going to hit the roof. Then as he gradually unwinds nearing the finish cutting them down with every stride, I find it exhilarating. If he wins this Sunday, that’s 6 months beer expenditure covered.
DoM that is because you bet money on the horse and that is what makes that exhilarating. No, I don’t get many adenaline rushes anymore. Only from extreme sports (rock climbing, skydiving, surfing) things like that.
Not always. I don’t bet on every race. People think it’s an odd thing to be passionate about. I eat breathe and sleep horse racing. It’s a major distraction for me. I can occupy my mind for hours reading form and trying to work things out I understand that everyone that gambles loses in the end but I’m a risk taker. It’s in my nature.
duke, you’ve persuaded me. i’m going back into football gambling. i’m going to start making my excel spreadsheet right now. maybe with the appliance of some science i can avoid losing too much.
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Probably not……..
Even an empty black hole has to be better. OK, no more talking to yourself Jael!
Why are you leaving? :'(
Why ? Do you wish to make it clear what you mean. I am happy to listen .
Got to make a wish frist.
People generally post on here because they want someone to listen to what they are saying. There are several people that have now responded. It makes sense to talk to them.
you can blow out a candle, but you can’t blow out a fire. once the flames begin to catch, the wind will blow it higher. there is no next life.
I was in difficulty once and a guy on this site offered to help me. I declined, I can look after myself but can you imagine that someone on here would do that. They weren’t just the empty words. That’s what you call a friend. So, no one is ever alone like you think. There are always people out there.
I have tried to take or accept help, or talk with people…but they all leave. Every single one left me. The only problem I see, is me.
So tonight I want to get rid of the problem. To help others, help me, I need to go.
Donnie the wish would be for me to have my loved ones back. Not going to happen.
If they leave you, why would you want them around anyway. There are lots of similar people out there with the same interests. You can make lots of friends if you try a little.
If you go, there will be no one left to give me half-good responses to my posts. Seriously, it does help us to cope, with each reply we get to an entry. To know someone is listening. I don’t know what your home situation is like, but I can tell you that if you go, you will be missed here.
you cant just let life go like that… everyone has problems in life some bigger then others and its up to you to stand up to your problems and make a difference.
Thanks Nolentwohundred. Has to be the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me.
Stay strong
True, Duke of Marmalade. It might be too late now though. I have lost the effort and drive for life. I wanted to “feel” something before I go, anything. That’s why I’ve been posting off and on here and other sites. I thought maybe I would have and epiphany or something that would show me there is something different. That people do care about me, Jael, me, not just in passing say hi, how are you? kind of thing.
They will, I promise. Just stick around here.
You might want to check out the SP chatroom
Why Duke of Marmalade? I am not sure about being here after tonight.
Because I’ve made friends on here who would find me if I needed help and they were in a position to give it. Im many ways, I don’t regret any of this.
DoM how are these friends? Virtual friends? Would anyone actually care or care to get to know me? Or is it just a show of kindness? and ear to listen (eyes to read)? Advice to give.
jael, the chatroom suggestion is a good one. it’s really good fun in there and the topics are varied – it’s far from being just depression and suicide chat. also, you can interract with people on a more personal level than you can on here. give it a try.
I’m not going to lie to you Jael. 97% of the people are as you describe. The 3% is all that counts.
I’m not sure 3% is enough to keep me here. Although I’ve been working with 0% and I’m still here, now I wonder what I am waiting for.
I didn’t come here to make friends and am not here for that reason at all. Of you want people to talk to then there are lots of people here that will sympathise. I am only in contact with three people outside the site because when you talk to someone everyday for a year I think you kindof know them.
i would say that those percentages are a little on the negative side. maybe i’m just naive. jael, you have to give people a chance to get to know and like you. like duke originally suggested – go and try the chatroom – you can ‘Private Message’ people and get to know them better. by the way, i’m not paid commission for recruiting people for the chatroom. if i was, i’d mention the chatroom in every post i made.
You must really miss me OB1 to come back here
more than you can possibly imagine, duke
Yes, I understand where you are coming from DoM and OB1. It’s very hard to put myself out there any more. Afraid to try. Afraid of rejection. Afraid of many things.
jael, i don’t make friends precisely because i cannot deal with the thought of one day not speaking to them again. no one gets close to me. i have a deflector shield that is more powerful than the death star’s.
Never be afraid of rejection Jael. What’s the worst that can happen. They say no and you move on, its their loss. I’ve been rejected hundreds of times even though that might be difficult for people to imagine.
Thanks for talking to me guys. For that time you took out to respond to me. That says something about some of the people here.
No need to thank anyone. Today’s the first day of your life 🙂
DoM Sorry to say that it may be my last. I will take your and others advice and see where it gets me, but I don’t have long.
Why the rush. You’ve been around 38 years. Don’t you think you owe it to yourself to explore options you didn’t even know existed.
jael, how old are you? 27?
nevermind. i see you’re 38.
Yes 27. DoM No rush any longer. Just have everything ready and do not want to prolong it.
27 my mistake. Still a long time to invest.
It feels like a long time. Waiting any longer is a bigger investment, to my depression, grief and society.
Don’t you get an adrenaline rush from anything. I will tell you if Camelot is lying in about 4th or 5th rounding the turn and hits his customary flat spot then I think my blood pressure is going to hit the roof. Then as he gradually unwinds nearing the finish cutting them down with every stride, I find it exhilarating. If he wins this Sunday, that’s 6 months beer expenditure covered.
DoM that is because you bet money on the horse and that is what makes that exhilarating. No, I don’t get many adenaline rushes anymore. Only from extreme sports (rock climbing, skydiving, surfing) things like that.
Not always. I don’t bet on every race. People think it’s an odd thing to be passionate about. I eat breathe and sleep horse racing. It’s a major distraction for me. I can occupy my mind for hours reading form and trying to work things out I understand that everyone that gambles loses in the end but I’m a risk taker. It’s in my nature.
Obviously I’m also a risk taker. Not that I don’t like a great day at the races, but mine is a different kind of risk.
duke, you’ve persuaded me. i’m going back into football gambling. i’m going to start making my excel spreadsheet right now. maybe with the appliance of some science i can avoid losing too much.
DoM oh and mine are dog races not horses.
You guys make me feel like going to the casino :L
I think either way I decide, it will be a gamble. I wish it was only a game sometimes.
Absolutely not. They only way anyone can win is if they are told what’s going to win. I see it more as entertainment than to make money.
I like to gamble on thouroughbreds ,but I usually go to the local harness track.
Yeah, the roman racing is good. Not as many favourites get turned over.
I am gambling my life right now
I njoy listening to the horses’ hooves hitting the dirt.That sound sometimes gives me chills.Horses are wonderful animals.
My suicide is a gamble as life and death is a gamble to most of us here. I wish that I met you guys sooner than I have. Best of luck to you guys.