I think of all the relationships I do not have, the lack of love. I can feel my own heart completely overflowing with love for so many things, I find it so easy to love. So why is it so hard for me to feel loved by somebody else? Ive forgotten what it feels like to look into someones eyes and know they love me, to hear someone tell me they love me and believe it, to be held and feel comforted by it. I look around me and it seems to be everywhere. Couples, kids and their parents, siblings, best friends. Everyone has this disease and they’re spreading it among the ones they know. I see the symptoms everywhere. I am a carrier but am not yet infected.
I am immune, I am alone.
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You’re not. Your time will come.
The best thing you can do is learn to live and love all by yourself. You don’t need someone else to complete you. Get in touch with yourself while you can. You will find love, that much I can promise you.
this is beautifully written, i completely understand what your saying. Just a complete envy of them when they smile and laugh. My two best friends just started dating and it kinda leaves me feeling left out, but itll be okay, if i can make it so can you
I didn’t really realize how much I felt this way until I read this. I feel the same. It has been so long since I have felt that someone else truly loved me. Such a basic human desire to at least feel like you mean something to someone and I have been going for so long without it…
I love this post and feel the same.
I can see how easy it is for people, but I can’t have it for myself.
Guess it doesn’t help that I have crippling anxiety triggered by social interaction.
Hope you catch it in a best friend way, it’s a lot less bullshit than the romantic way.
<3
I feel the same way.
Thank your for putting the way i feel into words more beutiful than i could. I think im just un-loveable in general.