I’m ugly I’m really ugly. 3rd time of chemo and I’m already really sick, ive lost over half my hair and its terrifying i’m scared I’m really scared. this is causing even more pain. should i kill myself now or carry on suffering in pain? cancer is to hard its awful and i dont see how im going to survive! ive been getting messages that im worthless, ugly, useless, good for nothing and that i should go kill myself. the hurtful things people have said to me its to hard to cope,…. how much longer can i last??? i feel really weak and helpless last night i cried and cried the whole intire night. i could make an ocean with the amount of tears that i have shed.
i need help and support… please talk to me just to make me feel better… mind you, you probably dont wanna know me… im just a worthless good for nothing and ugly little teenager.
do you think i would look ugly and disgusting with my hair gone?
just please im begging you please try to make me feel better… i just want someone to care about me =[
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My father died of Leukemia four years ago. Even though they caught it at a late stage, the doctors used my dad for every penny he was worth, until he was sick of the chemo, and sick of dialysis, and he just quit going. He lived exactly one month after his 60th birthday.
You’re not ugly. You’re sick. And you’re getting better. Don’t listen to ugly words from uglier people. Right now they don’t matter to you. You can beat this.
I know how much the chemo hurts. I know that it makes you want to turn inside out. But it’s helping you. Even if it takes away your hair, it will always grow back.
I bet your beautiful. What kind of sick, jealous, satanic bastard is that horrid to a cancer patient? I think you should live and see how it really makes you look. My grandmother’s eyes were brown all her life, and then out of nowhere after she had been diagnosed with cancer her eyes changed to blue. I had a friend who developed dimples. Ive seen women look BETTER with short hair and go on to model. Those kids who say hurtful things are idiots. Jealous at all of the things you’ll accomplish and you’ll be able to say “AND i beat cancer” <3 hang in there
thankyou but i dont feel beautiful
thankyou but its soooooo hard and im sorry about your father i hope you all okay.
and how will it grow back if i dont live past it… and mines been caught late… maybe i’ll die ater my 15 birthday which is in 24 days.
He had the disadvantage of having a much weaker immune system than you. Through years of abuse his body wasn’t in the greatest condition, plus 40 something years of smoking and drinking….
Right now you need to look forward to your birthday. And then focus on the one after that. Chemo doesn’t do all of the work. There’s a reason it’s called fighting cancer. You can’t give up, or you’ll lose. I have faith in you.
oh im sorry i feel like an idiot now =L
You’re not an idiot. You’re scared. And no one can blame you. I’d be scared, and I’m ten years older than you. You’re doing something harder than any of those hateful people are doing, and it’s probably harder than anything they’ll ever do. You’re fighting for your life. And if you keep your chin high, you’ll make it.
i’ll try but i dont know how long i can put up a fight.
As long as need be. You just have to stay focused on the prize. 15, then 16. You still have to get your learner’s permit!
yeah i guess i will try
🙂
UGLY= U Gotta Love Yourself. Remember that 🙂
Ugly doesn’t mean your apperance might be lesser than anyone elses appearance, it means you got to see and accept the beauty of YOURSELF. And for those people that judge you and send you negative messages, just shut it out and look at some funny youtube videos or something, try to forget those stupid comments. If you’re ever feeling down, put on a silly smile for no reason, it kind of helps. 🙂 I’m sorry if things are bad for you, it’s not your fault, it’s everyone elses who can’t seem to get a life and judge who ever walks by. Try to beat the cancer, not let it get worse. Try to live through the pain, i promise you things will get better. Just remember everyone here is here for you, we all pray you get better, for health and emotional. You’re awesome. You’re cool. You’re amazing. We all care for you. <3 🙂 xx
Gumpy
thankyou so much.