Hey, I’ really just looking for someone to talk to. I’m tired, an more than anything just don’t wanna be alone anymore. An I don’t mean it in a gay way… -.-‘
Me an people just don’t seem to click, but for god sake I don’t wanna be alone. An I truly know how much that sucks, an I don’t want anyone to be alone either.
He hardest thing to get to terms with is knowing there’s people as lonely as me, an I can’t help. I just don’t want anyone to be alone anymore. I just don’t.
Jkota
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try getting a pen pal some one you could share all your thoughts with someone who shares the same things as you and could give you advice when you needed sometimes you just need some one to be there for you and not to critisize you when you need them to tell you eveything is going to be alright even though you know they lying but you need to here it anyway
Its not so much me that’s the prob. I know I can be ok. Fuck it. Nothing gonna bring me down. Its knowing there are people that feel like this. Not being able to be there. I can’t just accept that that’s life. I wanna make sure noone is every alone again. An the prospect of that is tiny, if not impossible. An that’s what brakes me. Knowin ii won’t change. That there will be people alone an its just accepted. But I’m not just gonna sit there an wait for someone to save me, when I could make someone feel just a little less alone.
i would love to talk to you. i have been looking for someone to talk to about those types of things too. it would be amazing if we could talk. HMU if your interested
Hey, I’m not sure what HMU is lol? But yeah I would love to talk. Sorry I’m a complete retard sometimes. But it would be good to hear from ya.
Jkota
HMU is hit me up 😉
i know what you mean there is a lot of people that need just one person to hear them out and maybe you can help some one and that person help some one else and ect people will benefit from that because all it take is one person to listen and understand
esperansa…. ya i agree with that statement 100%
That’s exactly it. An I just wanna be that person. I eally wanna take that pain away from people. Noone deserves to be alone. Its fucking lonely lol. An more than anything I don’t want them to think its always gonna be like that. I swear even if I have to bend time and space ill change it. If there’s a way ill find it.
JKota, you seem like an amazing person. just saying
See told you. Complete retard somtime xD. But consider this me hitting you up then lol. Let’s chat.
hope fully no one could say for sure but give it your best
awesomesause.
I aint even amazing. I’m just a guy. I know all to well how it feels to be lonely. An its unbearable. Its somthing noone deserves. For fuck sake there 6.2 billion people in the world, how can people be made to feel lonely. Its not right. An if I can change that I fucking will. I would give anything.
wow.
i know exactly how it feels to be lonely i feel that way everyday, even if im putting on a fake smile im really breaking down inside..
I’m not gonna try my best. That would imply that I intend to fail, but I’m gonna try. I’m not gonna fail. (I fucking hope not lol)
Joann… i feel the same way. everyone always says i look so happy. its cuz i am putting on an act. every single day
JKota, thanks a lot. you dont know how much this means to me
Joann I complete get that. An understand ill never be able to feel your pain. Ill never see the world through your eyes, ill never live your life. But I can at least listen to your words, hear your stories, give you my ears. Its that lonelyness that in the most strangest of ways brings us together lol. If that makes any sence.
it makes complete sense
You don’t ever have to thank me. Its not somthing I should be thanked for. Your not alone, your not broken, your strong, your you.
wow. sorry but thats all i got to say on that. nobody ever really talks to me even in message form so this is kinda cool to me that someone actually cares what i have to say
@wishingthiswasover: thats how it is all the time, “your such a happy person” “I wish i could be as happy as you” but that not how i am at all, i am NEVER happyy.
@jkota: it does make sense and it would be great if that actually helped..i need to company face to face..not in a relationship way but even in a friend way..i hate being alone and its not that im not independant cause i am its just i feel so alone to the point that it depresses me and i dont know what to do about it..
@Joann… i am never happy. 🙁 like ever. i have just gotten good at puting on an act, that nobody ever knows the difference. :/
exactly..and it sucks..we shouldn’t have to do that we should be able to be happy..its like i don’t deserve the happiness when i’m always making sure everyone else is happy but i can’t get that in return :/
joann… exactly. im with you on that one all the way.
there are a lot of way you could talk to some one tell them how you feel or just talk about your day it will make you feel a lot better sometimes just sending a txt to a friend makes you feel a little better
how old are you? just wonderingg.
me? im 14. hbu?
im 16..but feel like i have the life of a 30 year old.. i should be having fun and doing what i want but my depression takes over and i just want it to go aaway
same here.
You feel so alone to the point, that the word alone doesn’t quite grasp it. That the word alone implys there’s other people in the world and your just not with them, when it fact its like there’s noone but you. That’s there’s not a chance of meeting somone or conecting with anyone because its more like a constent sigularity of just you, an your forts. you smile even to your self. You smile to convince yourself it ok to be alone. That if you smile long enough that it will become real. That when your sad you body say “yup, time to put a smile on that face sunshine lol”
lol. i like that one… The FFA people at my school have this thing… my nickname is sunshine.. its a loooonnnngggg ass story lol
@jkota: exactly
I was nicknamed sunshine by my freshman english teacher..funny
Fuck you guys are young. I’m 22, xD now I feel old. But wishthiswasover you feel. That’s why people should care, you feel just like me just like everyone on the planet. The moment I stop caring, is the moment I take my last breath. An that breath will be “fuck me Jkota, you did some good shit out there today lol”
I am a fresman haha
sorry freshman
Well even the sun has to set somtimes. But its always gonna rise the next day. You can’t stop sunshine, its blinding lol
i like that one… imma gonna use that for my quote… i have a day in the month where i have to have a quote by somebody to share to my school.. if you dont mine me using it that is
I finish schooling :p I’m training to be a paramedic now.
I’m using my phone, an its sooo hard to type on this shit xD
that is cool. i could never be a paramedic though :/ i want to be in the AF
Lol its not mine to hold. Its yours. Your sunshine. Its your quote now.
i feel very special now. you have me smiling like an idiot now.
Remember what I said about me being retarded somtime… What’s AF xD
aww its okay. Air Force. im a lazy ass and never spell stuff out lol. mostly cuz i cant spell worth crap
Good. You keep smile forever. Smile when they wanna see you frown, stand up when they wanna see you down and swim when they wanna see you drown.
you know what, you should just give quotes for a living haha 😉 sorry im a teenage girl and i find everything anyone says very inspiring.
Ahhh air force! (I’m so think sometimes lol)
lol
Lol that’s the thing, your young girl. An life is long (don’t believe people when they say its short, you aint gonna do anything that’s longer lol) so be good to your self. An trust in you.
Jkota – Apologies for the accidental kick from the chat – a bunch of troll showed up at the time you were there and no one recognized your name … sincere apologies
sorry dawg
ya. jsut curious… but r u a boy or girl???? lol
Lol no worries fella, I’m using my phone, can only have one window open at a timean wasn’t using it xD
Me? I’m a boy lol. Well I’m 22 so that’s a man! Grrr! :p
haha you sound like my older brother. all of them actually lol
Lol I’m an only child.xD
haha. ya im always like boys will be boys then all my older brothers are like we are men… manly men lol it cracks me up everytime. how i wish i could talk to them or see them. 🙁
They sound like right manly men xD grr. When was the last time you got a chance to see them? Btw is there an easyer way to chat on here? I have ta keep reloading the page. Altho as I said I am retarded.. -.-‘
hey anybody still there?
haha i am too. but idk if there is. most of them like a year or so one like just last week.
What about the SPchat room? I’m sure u can make a room on there I think
never knew there was such a thing.. ok sure whre do we go?
I think if ya go to ya dashboard, then ya’ll see the chatroom button.
Gotta make an account on chatz I think tho
Just got to ******.com an join the SP chat room lol.
k hey ill beback in half an hour or so. i am kinda in trouble.s o sorry
Lol no worries. Well If I don’t catch ya. Talk to you another time. Just remember to keep smiling girl.
hey sorry bout last night. :/ just completly fell asleep.
i am going home this weekend so i am not going to be able to talk on here again until sunday night at around 7 or so. dont know what time zone you are in but i am in pacific. if you are not then you could try to figure out the time for where you are at or something i dont care. lol.. it might be later than 7 it just depends on what time church gets out,and also if i am still in trouble and get to come back to the dorms on sunday or if i am coming monday morning before school. but i will catch ya somethime lol you can bet your bottom dollar.
Bet my bottom dolla! XD well I’m in the uk. But I got insomnia, so I’m always awake. Don’t matter what time zone, I’m 24/7 lol.
So when ever girl, just don’t feel alone coz ur not. Ever wanna just vent at someone, you always got my ears. An ill try make ya laugh. Try get ya smiling again.
hey if you want you can email me…. oh wait its got my name.. hmm gotta go make a new acount lol.. dubzy4@gmail.com
hey, jkota, you still there???? i havent been able to get into my mail lately.. so umm we might have to go back to talking on here..
hey Jkota, is there a number i can txt u at or something?? i cant ge ton my email for some reason
Jkota? U still on here?