its back:(

so i havent posted on here in a long time my life latley has been crazy:( yes i ave a great fiance whos always here for me and care for me a lot but he doesnt understand the stress of college trying to find a job before i get kicked out and everything else going on with me. Plus i had a miscarriage 4 weeks ago from to much stress (thats why the doctor say is it happened). I really hat emyself for that any my chid min heaven will never forgive me i love it with all my heart i may have only been 4 weeks along but i still loved it i wished i could change things but i cant. we both had dreams of a little girl telling us we were her parents and she loved us so we named her charity grace. I really hope my life gets better:(