Hi im sammie im new to this website and im more here to see if people can really save me or help me from what i am going through. well the moral of my life is im a 14 year old girl who dosint know what to do in life anymore, i barley have friends and my family is spreading more and more away from me. I never made my mom happy with nothing and my dad left me last year to move to texas. I have about 60 cuts on my right arm and the name “james” on my left arm, james is my ex boyfriend me and him broke up about 4 months ago and it have been hell ever since. i tried to kill myself more then 3 times since 13 and i still have those feeling. i fucked up a lot of thing. Im bi i get made fun of it every day of my life and i already had sex 2 witch makes my life even more worst because every one thinks i am a whore. i need someone to help me give me something to help me through this depression. i been in the hosbital more then 2 times and most of it was because of pills. i need someone who understands what i been through.. my brother got shot about 2 years ago and i let myself go i smoke i drink and i been aresteed. theripist told me to my face im to crazy for them to handle…..:p
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1. Get a new therapist. Seriously.
2. Welcome to The Suicide Project. I recently found it. I love it.
3. Have you tried praying to whoever/whatever you believe in….?
4. Is there anyone or anything that makes you feel even a little better? I struggle to come up with those names of people and activities when I’m really depressed and waiting to kill myself, but when I realize there are still reasons to live…I can stop myself from hurting myself.
5. Everyone who is calling you names isn’t worth it!!!!! F*** them. Seriously.
6. Even if you have had sex and are only 14 that doesn’t make you a whore, it just means you may have made a few poor decisions. You can still start over.
7. You are beautiful.
yeah im trying to find someone else who can and i tried doing that but it didnt really work. i did make poor dicisions when i did it and i try to not think about it and im trying to start over with it. thank you(:
Hi 🙂 I want you to be proud of yourself because you took the first step. You want someone to help you and you want things to get better. I’m a thirteen year old girl, and I’m not going to pretend like I understand what you’ve been through, but I do know how you feel. I have lots of problems at home and at school and everywhere I go. Just keep your head up darling. Is there a family member you’re close with or a really good friend you could talk to? Last year I started talking to my friend and we went through the same thing. She helped me through it. Try finding something that makes you happy. What’s your “thing”. Mine was soccer. Anytime I felt sad or lonely I’d go practice my skills or call up a friend to play with. Maybe you’re artistic, or you have a sport or hobby you love. It doesn’t matter what people say. Just be yourself. I know I sound like a post card, but it gets better. I joined this website a few weeks ago, and it makes me feel good because I can connect with people in a way I couldn’t really before. It felt like no one really got me, or that no one else was going through what I was. But they are, and they’ve gone through it, and hopefully you will too. Keep your head up Sammie 🙂
the thing i really will go for is cheerleading when ever i go it just lets everything away in my mind im trying with that and i really dont have a family member there for me witch really sucks
Hi 🙂 I want you to be proud of yourself because you took the first step. You want someone to help you and you want things to get better. I’m a thirteen year old girl, and I’m not going to pretend like I understand what you’ve been through, but I do know how you feel. I have lots of problems at home and at school and everywhere I go. Just keep your head up darling. Is there a family member you’re close with or a really good friend you could talk to? Last year I started talking to my friend and we went through the same thing. She helped me through it. Try finding something that makes you happy. What’s your “thing”. Mine was soccer. Anytime I felt sad or lonely I’d go practice my skills or call up a friend to play with. Maybe you’re artistic, or you have a sport or hobby you love. It doesn’t matter what people say. Just be yourself. I know I sound like a post card, but it gets better. I joined this website a few weeks ago, and it makes me feel good because I can connect with people in a way I couldn’t really before. It felt like no one really got me, or that no one else was going through what I was. But they are, and they’ve gone through it, and hopefully you will too. Keep your head up Sammie 🙂
Hi Sammie,
I can relate. I grew up an only child, parents fighting everyday over drugs. I was so depressed. I felt like I had no one. I was a cutter and slit my wrists when I was 12. That was my wake up call. It was scary being that close to death. My dad and I got very close after my parents divorced and hearing him cry on the phone about what his daughter did was enough to deter me. I got some counseling and got better. I lost my dad to alcohol when i turned 18. I was devastated but determined to make him proud. So, i got my shit together if you will and applied for a job at a Sheriff’s Office (of all places). Ive been there for almost 10 years now and am a supervisor. I did it on my own. I thought my mom was gonna take me away from my father and send me to live with her and her physically abusive new husband so i cut my wrists. Looking back now it seemed like a dumb reason to end my life. But i know that when you are a teenager different things matter then they do when you are an adult. I lost my husband to suicide about a month ago. Got into an argument and he shot and killed himself. The biggest thing i heard was how selfish he was but…. being a suicidal teenager i knew what went through my mind before i picked up that knife and it wasnt anything but “I just want the pain to stop”. I wasnt thinking of how it would effect my family and friends. Being on the other side of it now i realize how devastating it is. You matter to someone. You may not feel like you do but you do!!! You have something to contribute to this world. Screw what everyone else thinks you do your own thing and just know we all screw up and we all make mistakes. Its how you recover from them thats key. Since i lost my husband i have gotten on some medicine, and been to see a therapist once or twice a week. And its helping tremendously!!! Not all therapists are the same. If you dont like one try a new one. The most helpful thing mine told me was my husband was looking for a “permanent solution to a temporary problem”. Temporary! Your life is going to change but just know the problems you face now are only temporary. True im not gonna lie they may get worse, but they may get better. You keep holding your head high and know that the mistakes make you a stronger and better person. You are the only one thats gotta answer in the end, i understand what you’re going through and have been on both sides of this unfortunately. Its not too late to turn your life around. You are still young. You do what makes you happy! But know that you matter and are here for a reason. Much love to you keep your head up. It gets better i promise you
Karen.
thank you a lot it means a lot that i know someone dose carre and thanks why im on here so see if anyone dose care and thats one of my worrys is im going to do something wrong but then again i kinda want to. im trying to keep my head up high and the only reaason why im not dead is because i wanna be there for my sister when she gets older and i dont want her to think its a good thing to cut or kill youself. its kinda hard to hide buts but im doing it.
🙂 I’m glad you have something to let go and feel better. Stick with it. I like cheerleading too. I love watching how happy they are. It sounds ridiculous but I used to write in a journal. It helped me at least a little bit release all of the stuff going on in my head. I didn’t like talking about it with people because I thought they would judge me or wouldn’t care. Then I found this site, and I wrote my story and felt instant relief. Try the chatroom 🙂 they’re really nice and funny there
yeah i know and its okay i use to write in a journal to but not really anymore and i will(:
I know its tough. My husband also left behind an 11 year old brother. I was more angry at what he did to him than me. You are right. Your sister needs you. Helping other people not only distracts you but makes you feel good about yourself and for depressed people like us we need to feel good about ourselves. I know its hard but try to keep going. If anything do it for her. But you are special and we all make mistakes (i have made plenty!). But dont let that break you. Find something you love (like cheerleading) and try to help your sister. You will see that you have much to offer this world 🙂