From what I’ve gathered most of the people on this site are suicidal because they’re unable to cope with the emotional pain in their lives. This isn’t the case with me, despite having to deal with emotional turmoil on a daily basis I always manage to push it aside and enjoy myself. It doesn’t even take that much of an effort to come on top of my negative emotions, i easily distract myself with whatever.
Problem is I don’t consider my life to be worth even the little effort i give it, i just don’t see the point and am becoming increasingly indifferent about it. The reason for this are my looks. I can’t accept my body, I don’t want to. With that said my looks are average if not slightly above but that will -never- be even nearly good enough for me. No amount of exercise or esthetic surgery will give me my ideal. This fact used to torture me but I’ve accepted it. Since life didn’t provide me with the body I want I’ve decided not to participate in it anymore, no hard feelings on my end, it’s not like life owed me.
Yes I am that shallow. Nothing seems to matter to me apart from my physical appearance. Maybe after death I’ll get a second chance at this existence with my ideal looks.
Pleasant day everyone.
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If you have someone to love you then looks won’t matter because they’ll love you no matter what, not only for who you are but also because of your looks.
Love is mysterious and even if you don’t think your good looking, the person that loves or will love you probably thinks your beautiful
Keep in mind that there may not be any afterlife at all. I know this is kinda metaphysical, but I still believe that pain is better than nothing at all.
But you say you don’t feel pain. So, live until the end, you’ve got nothing to lose. Few years are too little compared to the “infinitude of nothingness”. And, at the same time, if this is all there is, every second more you get is priceless, even in pain.
That’s actually a very strange but interesting philosophy, but I believe that most of us can’t cope with the pain, and rather feel like we are a sleep foreverAnd it’s not just if they don’t have pain, it’s also when you don’t see a point in life, a week ago I was ready to die because there was no point to live, I wasn’t happy, and I was pretty sure I would never actually be happy, the only thing that would make me happy is finding a partner to love, and I didn’t believe that I would find someone that thinks the same way I think, so I didn’t want to be with anyone, but then I found her, and she gave my life meaning, 17 years living without a meaning, but I finally found it. Maybe love isn’t the meaning to everyone’s life, but my life wouldn’t be worth to live without it.You have to think about what you want in life, and when you find out what you want, you have to go for it.
Ow. That hurt me. In the heart… Where I feel pain. Just because you feel no emotion, doesn’t mean you get to trample on others.