I wonder if sometimes people give the slightest though of what they are about to do to you and your heart. Do they ever wonder if they are going to leave a scar? Or a hole, or just some broken pieces that seem almost in possible to fix back? I just wonder what they think when they want to leave you, I wonder if they see…how much tears you will cry for them. I wonder…do I ever cross they’re mind. Or when they leave me there to hold myself up. Fight for myself. They just leave, and sooner or later they come back…and your so mad at them but you know deeply down inside, you just were so worried about them…But you yell at them still for leaving you when you needed them most.. But then they say, I’m sorry for leaving you. I just couldn’t do this for a while. But you forgive them…realizing they wanted you to be mad at them, because they screwed up on the smallest thing…leaving you…
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I wonder how I affect people all the time. that’s mostly why I keep to myself
we all make mistakes. i feel it’s what we as human beings do best. sometimes those mistakes are made with hurtful intentions. and other times they are made with loving intentions.
nevertheless, i find that harboring anger or resentment towards those who make mistakes, for whatever reason, only serves to hurt me more in the end. strangely enough, i can easily forgive others for the hurt they have caused me. but i have an extremely difficult time trying to forgive myself for the hurt i have cause others.
my biggest fear in life is being left by those i truly love, and yet it seems to be a constant theme in my life thus far. if only there was a switch on my heart to go from caring too much, to caring not at all… i would never be happy again, bu i would also never hurt either.
Me and my close friend, it’s weird…our friendship. We ask all the questions that can be asked about our friendship. But everyone else doesn’t see how badly their words really hurt me. It makes me sick and I lie and say “oh, it’s fine I really don’t care” But that is the story of my life I guess, but it really hurts me when I go back to their words “monster, creep, and mostly ugly” I don’t believe them completely but lately…it’s really starting to bother me :/
I have not brought hurtful words out of my words for such a long time…I just feel the hurt of other peoples words anymore. And I forgive them, but when I do, it’s like I take inventory of their words. And they just keep repeating like a cycle. And I no longer regret. :/
I do this A Lot to people I figure that I am so messed up that the fact they are happy and healthy even though they cry they miss me and I miss them too i would be better to love them from afar to keep that beautiful person they way they were when I met them. If I can manage that I can find some kind peace within myself but to see the other side I feel really sorry for how much pain I caused
Yeah, I stop hurting people. Once they over run me and broke me down. Then I became the shy one. That rarely talks. :/
i agree with jmvsic. humans hurt each other all the time, but friendships are about looking past the mistakes. talking to other people always carries a risk; sometimes the rewards are worth it