tired

the hurt thats inside me
i cant seem to forget
i try to find the key
but all i feel is regret
like why i do this
and why i run away
how can i get out of this aybss
and know what to say.
do i even mean what i let out
or want people to hear
i guess i just want to feel like my sainty is near
im living my story
and its getting harder everyday
nothing is now boring
im only now afraid
i dont know who to go to
i only want to cry
all i am trying to ask is will you help me through and not want to die?