Last night my mom came home drunk again..she has an alcohol problem but decides to ignore it thinking its not effecting me and my sister but it is..it tears me apart..it was the first time i didn’t help her..i felt bad because she could hardly walk, i so badly wanted to but i knew if i did that she would keep thinking it was ok..ill be 18 in less then two years and i want to leave but I’m afraid to leave my sister..I wish i knew what i could do to make my mom realize its not only hurting her body but the ones around her too..i am ready to give up, i don’t want to feel this pain anymore..
today was bad, my best friend actually tried to kill herself..she told me she couldn’t do it anymore and it broke my heart..i felt like it was my fault, like i wasn’t a good enough friend..I was really scared i was going to lose her.. she told me it wasn’t my fault but i couldn’t help to think it was. I wanted to join her and just end my life right along with her, i don’t know how much longer i can take the pain and disappointment.
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Look, you have to have faith in yourself before you can expect others to. I know that It sucks knowing your family doesnt even notice, and that’s what hurts most of all, but you have to be strong. you need to let others around you know what your feeling and what your thinking,its going to be hard for them to hear but it will help both you and them. maybe they dont see it and maybe they do think everything is ok with you but until you tell them they will not know forsure. I can tell your a strong person,i used to cut, really bad. I finally did something to help myself. i got a tattoo on my wrist that says love so now whenever i go to cut i see it and realize i can and i dont have to, its just a way to releive some pain but it only helps right then, when your done the pain is still there, i am here if you need to talk.STAY STRONG!
isnt that the same thing i out on a different post? ^^^
It was good advice; i sent it back to you because people don’t usually heed their own admonishments.
oh, ok. well thank you!