For the past few month the only thing that seems natural to me is that tears fall and fall and fall. I don’t know why but these manic mood swings and unreasonable behavouir occurs every winter/autumn and it is exhausting. I’m in the process of applying to uni and finishing my A levels which causes an uncontrollable amount of stress. I can’t deal with it. I don’t know how to work anymore because i’m just in this negative hole constantly unable to break free. I’m not normally this person I’m generally quite jolly and happy-go-lucky but not anymore. I feel so drained. Every inch of my positivity and compassion towards others is being invaded and overtaken by these negative selfish thoughts. I don’t know why I’m so sad at the moment therefore, I find it hard to talk. When I cry in front of my family they call me silly and I hate burdening my friends with my issues. Someone help me.
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i sadly also suffer from the manic episodes that come along with bipolar 2..i cry and cry as well. i cry myself to sleep every night wishing to die. i come here to vent because like you i feel like if i told my friends id be burdening them. my family doesnt understand. they say its just my bipolar. but inside were actually people in a lot of emotional pain.
i hate this darkness and i dont understand it so its even harder… thank u for ur words
i dont really think its something that can be understood.
Despite being in the year below you I get the problems with college. What are you taking? Are they subjects you prefer? I hope they aren’t way too hard for you. I suppose in a way it’s good you’re crying, the pain needs to come out somehow. Good luck with it all!