I email her occasionally, sono. She’s taken a long break from this site; thinks SP isn’t what it used to be. I think she still lurks sometimes, though. But the last time I talked to her she said she needed to focus on herself first and foremost.
I feel like maybe I should impart a bit of Ama’s wisdom. Why? Just ’cause we miss her.
“I remind myself that life is a journey…not a moment…and forgive myself…the hardest part…and move on. Hey…there are no logs in the road…or hooks in my ass….so I keep moving.”
I like Amakua too….she never spoke in complete…sentences…..there were always these ……dots…..inbetween her …….thoughts……I wondered if……it was the……online version of …….stuttering. 🙂 Whatever. If you’re reading this Amakua……Hello. 🙂
I haven’t been on this site for weeks…not even lurking. (Hey Lucy…they are called ellipsis…hahaha) I have been itching to check in for most of that time…but last night it was almost a constant urge…so I went to bed! I haven’t even kept up with my e-mail (sorry GoodGirl…love ya…miss ya)…and then this morning I clicked on the link while I was still sleeping. What a wake up call!!!
I miss the SP and all the wonderful people I have met on this site…but let’s be serious…they ain’t all wonderful…and I’ve had more than my fair share of ass wipes to deal with as well. This is what has me shaking my head and wondering why I bother. And yes…I know that I can be a major ass wipe as well…or was that asshat…hehehe.
Hey GoodGirl…it’s almost our anniversary…should I send flowers? lol
A year ago I was in a dark, dark, dark place in my soul…not that it wasn’t vaguely familiar and comfortable…but too many things happened at one time…and I began to question the worth of myself…I was letting others down…and they were letting me down big time as well. In retrospect…it must have been hard to be within 100 feet of me…I was spinning big time.
In a moment of desperation…I sat down and googled suicide…and the rest is history. A wonderful soul…who I will quit outing…renewed my faith in mankind…and without knowing what he was doing I’m sure…he brought me back to the light. This is not to say that I’m “all better now”…that would be ludicrous…but I’m back on my path again for sure…rocks, stumps, potholes and all….but THANK GOD…no logs…lmfao
I think the problem I had with this site is not the site’s problem…but mine…sigh…
I can’t stand to see others suffer…and worse…I can’t stand to watch people being victimized…so for my trouble…I became the victim. There is a lot of shite going on on this site that has nothing to do with helping or caring…and far too many young people who just want someone to care…to give a shit. This makes this fertile ground for unsavoury types that prey on the weak, sick and young. This is what has kept me from the site for the most part…that and my ravine excavation…lol
But it’s getting cold outside now…not good weather to play in the mud…in the ravine or in my head…so I have been thinking about coming back here for the winter…I dunno…not sure I’ve learned how to behave myself well enough yet…sigh
So for those of you who don’t appreciate my nonsense…blame sono_libero…the one that conjured the witch…hehehehe
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I email her occasionally, sono. She’s taken a long break from this site; thinks SP isn’t what it used to be. I think she still lurks sometimes, though. But the last time I talked to her she said she needed to focus on herself first and foremost.
I wondered what happened to her too. She was alway nice.
I feel like maybe I should impart a bit of Ama’s wisdom. Why? Just ’cause we miss her.
“I remind myself that life is a journey…not a moment…and forgive myself…the hardest part…and move on. Hey…there are no logs in the road…or hooks in my ass….so I keep moving.”
🙂
I like Amakua too….she never spoke in complete…sentences…..there were always these ……dots…..inbetween her …….thoughts……I wondered if……it was the……online version of …….stuttering. 🙂 Whatever. If you’re reading this Amakua……Hello. 🙂
I haven’t been on this site for weeks…not even lurking. (Hey Lucy…they are called ellipsis…hahaha) I have been itching to check in for most of that time…but last night it was almost a constant urge…so I went to bed! I haven’t even kept up with my e-mail (sorry GoodGirl…love ya…miss ya)…and then this morning I clicked on the link while I was still sleeping. What a wake up call!!!
I miss the SP and all the wonderful people I have met on this site…but let’s be serious…they ain’t all wonderful…and I’ve had more than my fair share of ass wipes to deal with as well. This is what has me shaking my head and wondering why I bother. And yes…I know that I can be a major ass wipe as well…or was that asshat…hehehe.
Hey GoodGirl…it’s almost our anniversary…should I send flowers? lol
A year ago I was in a dark, dark, dark place in my soul…not that it wasn’t vaguely familiar and comfortable…but too many things happened at one time…and I began to question the worth of myself…I was letting others down…and they were letting me down big time as well. In retrospect…it must have been hard to be within 100 feet of me…I was spinning big time.
In a moment of desperation…I sat down and googled suicide…and the rest is history. A wonderful soul…who I will quit outing…renewed my faith in mankind…and without knowing what he was doing I’m sure…he brought me back to the light. This is not to say that I’m “all better now”…that would be ludicrous…but I’m back on my path again for sure…rocks, stumps, potholes and all….but THANK GOD…no logs…lmfao
I think the problem I had with this site is not the site’s problem…but mine…sigh…
I can’t stand to see others suffer…and worse…I can’t stand to watch people being victimized…so for my trouble…I became the victim. There is a lot of shite going on on this site that has nothing to do with helping or caring…and far too many young people who just want someone to care…to give a shit. This makes this fertile ground for unsavoury types that prey on the weak, sick and young. This is what has kept me from the site for the most part…that and my ravine excavation…lol
But it’s getting cold outside now…not good weather to play in the mud…in the ravine or in my head…so I have been thinking about coming back here for the winter…I dunno…not sure I’ve learned how to behave myself well enough yet…sigh
So for those of you who don’t appreciate my nonsense…blame sono_libero…the one that conjured the witch…hehehehe
Lots of Love to All…miss ya
Amakua