Sometimes… in life, people fall down… and they don’t really want to get up again. I fell down slowly, didn’t really feel it till I hit the ground, and when I try to raise up from the floor… I can’t find the will… to live anymore. So I let myself go, watch the world go by… nobody knows when I tell the lie… It’s nothing, I’m okay. But I’m going to wake up tomorrow… for everyone’s sake.
And to those people, who managed to get up again, you have no idea how much I applaud you. Thank you, from me personally, for being strong… even if it was just putting down the knife today and giving it a rest. My friend’s started cutting again and it sucks… it seems like I’m the only one who ever notices. But when you’re suicidal… you notice the little things.
Yet you never notice when you start to fall… it all happens too quick when you’re an inch from the edge. Earlier this year I was fully ready to end it all… just needed to find the right pills, and looking at it now if I’m going to kill myself, I’m going to make it hurt… because I’ll deserve that much just for giving up on everything. Then again I’m probably not needed at all… but I’m a friend. A good friend, a best friend, a friend you talk to in class, a friend you walk home with, a friend you think you know. One in a million, a million in one… giving up on myself is giving up on everyone else… and I can’t do that. Even if I promised. They are made to be broken. Lies are meant to be kept. Memories are to be remembered.
I’m not going to fall over again.
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The person who appears the happiest actually the ones who cries a lot when they’re alone. Don’t give up, no matter how deep you’ve fallen, stand up and fight back. It is painful, it is hurtful, but once we’re back on our feet, we are the strongest person alive.
I find the best way to answer that is with a thank you.