I don’t expect you to read all of what I say, but I am young…. I am only fourteen and I want to end my life already…. At school, I have had people tell me to kill myself, and the teachers think I’m lying. My best friends mom told me he killed himself today. I want to follow in his footsteps… I get called fat, because I am over weight, I get called an attention seeker because I dyed my hair pink. I get called a whore because I was pregnant. It’s not my fault I got pregnant. I was walking home from my boyfriends house and I got kidnapped and raped. I was going to keep the baby, but it was a miscarriage. That was devastating. I have been reading stuff on this site, and I realized it doesn’t help to know that people feel the same way as you do… All I do is think that no one should have to go through this… Yes, I am suicidal, I tried to o.d on my depression pills, but it didn’t work. I also tried so cut a tendon, but my mom found me…. I am trying to make life feel better but it’s not helping very much. I tried to butterfly project once…. Â To help stop cutting…. But I felt bad for the butter flys and decided they didn’t deserve the pain of living on me, so I washed them off and cut…. does anyone have any ideas on how to stop?
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First off you are none of those things all those peopled called you they dont know your story so you shouldnt pay attention to anything they say. And you dyed hair? so what? people do it every day! im really sorry for the loss of your best friend but there is no need to follow in his footsteps. he may have done it but you dont need to. your life may be bad now, but who’s isnt? it just takes time to get everything fixed.dont end your life because you feel theres no reason to live. there are many reason to live whther you see them or not. i know you are an amazing person and you can become amazing thingz in this life, dont stop know. you’ve toughed everything else out. do the world a favor and keep being the strong person you already are.
I’m sorry you’ve had to go through all of this, especially the loss of your friend. You are being hard on yourself, try the butterfly method again but this time distract yourself from thinking about cutting by doing something else like watching tv or playing video games . It worked for me and I haven’t cut since. its an ongoing battle but just try to keep pushing forward 🙂
It doesn’t help to know someone has gone through the same thing you have gone through what helps is having people there to care about you. And look cutting is not going to solve it. It will help for a little bit. But the pain comes back. I don’t know who you are but I can tell already that your a good person. Don’t give into people’s words. I think your amazing. And nice. People are only insucure over themselves and that is why they pick on you. If you let the world bring you down it will destroy you. But let the happiness in you take over and it will be okay. (Easier said then done.)
I commend you for stepping up and deciding to have the baby that would have been a product of rape. Most women wouldn’t dare to be so courageous. That lets me know that you have a good heart. I am sorry so many people have hurt you and let you down in your life. You do deserve to be loved unconditionally. Ignore those that are telling you to kill yourself. I’m also sorry that you just lost a friend. I have nothing negative to say about your friend, for I didn’t know him. But suicide is a cowardly way to end your trouble. And we’ve already established that you are a courageous young lady. It is more admirable to stand up for yourself and fight back. You have to defend your right to be happy against whatever negativity this world hurls at you. Try to surround yourself with positive people. Not superficially positive, like “oh it will get better”, but people that have really achieved triumph over obstacles and now have a renewed perspective on life. If you don’t have anyone, I would be glad to keep in contact with you. Anyway, just know that whatever you are and have experienced will make you stronger if you allow it. No one wants to live a boring life anyway. At least yours is full of stories. 🙂
I’m sorry that you’ve been through all of this.
I’m trying to stop cutting. I’ve been writing letters. There full of everything that I really want to screem at people but shouldn’t. So I write it down, put it in an envelope and hide it. It really does help. When I’m angry I write how much I hate people, when I’m sad I write what makes me sad, when I’m happy I write what makes me happy, when the voices in my head are getting to much, I just write down what there saying and put crossed through the words, to cancel them out.
It has helped. Atm I still cut, but it was every day, probably 7 every day but I only did 3 last night and I haven’t cut today and I don’t want to. It really does help. You should try it x