I will be straight and will tell you all my whole life story. I live in india so yes i am a black but please dont discriminate. I am of 13 years of age .i got about 6 problems. I know this post is a lengthy one but guys please read. Â I need your help a lot. You might save my life.please help. Please read.
I am currently in class 9th. Since nursery i had been a topper ie always first allrounder. In class 8th i got abit distracted and started spending a lot of time on pc. This downGraded my rank to 5th. My mom is kind of over sensitive and due to diabetes and high blood prssure she gets a lot angry. When she is ngry she tears my notebooks, beats me with bat breaks my laptop, breaks the lcd and what not. Abuses me like hell. But when she is happy she can buy me nything and loves me. Here is the first problem. I am confused whether to love her or hate her. She wants me full day studying. She wants me to top in everyfield and be perfect. For loosing even one mark she gets angry like hell and mad. This is crazy. Now thhe second problem. This year she was detected with a non maligant tumor. She has still not operated it coz she says she hasnt got time as she is a workinglady in highcourt training officer. Â This has worried me, i dont want to loose my dear mom. Due to this my grades are contunously falling and i almost faling.. Third problem, my father is 75 years old with hih bloodpressure. He has another wife, and he married my mother without giving divorce. He was a highcourt judge and now a author. He always gives most of the money to his old wife who lives in another city. But we cant sue him because of the insult we will have to face. Also there is no legal proof of my father and moms marriage. There are daily fights between my mother and father. My mother takes out the anger on me. This all stuff has driven me crazy. Fourth problem. As i am the only son, i m alone. I always feel lonely. My friends are only 3 in number but they wre true, and i can only meet them at echool. I have no one to talk about y problems as i cant trust anyone and neither there is anyone who would be ready to listen to my prOblem. Also i donnt know why my mom thinks that i jack off so she has said this privately to all my reltives. That hurts like hell. Told ya she was crazy. The lastproblem is thAt recently my cousin sister whom i love the most was married forcefully for property. I have benn crying for that a lot. I now just cant bear it. My mom just half an hour ago broke my lappy and i have to post via my mobile. Guys please help me. Wat should i do, i cant find a. Way other than suicide but i will miss my friends, lappy and sis a lot.please helpe. I have been suffering a lot since last three years and i think i am almost on the verge of going mad. Please help please.
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Wow, I’m so sorry for what your going through. I don’t know know what to say to help but I didn’t just want to read your post and not say anything. What your going through is serious and I don’t have any words to lessen the pain, life is just disappointing and horribly unfair. I’m sorry if this didn’t help, but I don’t want to live either so I don’t have any enlightening words, I used to look forward to moving out of the house. But now the future seems to far away. I let out my anger but punching something, so just find an outlet to transfer the pain, for now that all we can do hang on by a thread hope someone will see through our facade and save us.
whew, thats a lot to take in but deep breathe honey. ur mom must love you but she has a lot of difficulty controlling herself as i can see. i am not sure how old you are, but if you are of legal age, you should really consider moving out, wether its with friends or anywhere safe. but if not, just hang in there and i know things get tough, but if ur mother ever crosses the line, youre gonna have to call for help. otherwise, as for your cousins problem, i know it hurts but u cannot take other peoples pain and give it to yourself. you have your own problems, work on those before putting other people before yourself.
whew, thats a lot to take in but deep breathe honey. ur mom must love you but she has a lot of difficulty controlling herself as i can see. i am not sure how old you are, but if you are of legal age, you should really consider moving out, wether its with friends or anywhere safe. but if not, just hang in there and i know things get tough, but if ur mother ever crosses the line, youre gonna have to call for help. otherwise, as for your cousins problem, i know it hurts but u cannot take other peoples pain and give it to yourself. you have your own problems, work on those before putting other people before yourself.
Sorry to hear you have so much to worry about at your age. I think it would be best for you to contact childline to speak to professionals that might be able to help you. Even if they can’t do anything for you, it would be better or you to speak to people who care rather than bottling it all up. Your Mother sounds like she has an anger problem proabably due to how she was treated when she was your age. She wants the best for you which is why she is hard on you. But if she is beating you that isn’t right. Look up childline India and send them an email. Hope this helps.