I am a innocent victim of a random shooting,I was shopping when a man came into the store and began firing,he shot me in the back ,leaving me paralyzed from the waist down,since the shooting people,friends,have become only memories…I never get any visitors,never get to celebrate holidays or birthdays…I have no family,I live on my own in my own home,never going anywhere, even outside..I have not spoken to another person,(other than Dr’s) on the phone in yrs….I am a good person,extremely independent,educated.I like most have made my share of mistakes,none however were bad enough that a apology would have fixed,.I feel like a invisible hitchiker on the freeway of life.When I woke from the shooting,I was told that I would have some quality of life…I’m here to tell you ,this is no quality of life,I have not been on a date for 15 yrs…since I cannot walk,girls are no longer interested,,I’m invisible…I can no longer continue to live like this,total social seclusion…no one should be alone…it’s aw-full to be alone…I had the greatest service dog 12yrs,a purebred Jack Russell,she kept me alive,only to be killed by a careless neighbor w/fireworks,…I’m sorry people for whatever I did to deserve this,what I do know is I’ve had enough..I’ve ask old friends to dinner or even for help…excuses are always the choice…I could never do to any of my friends,what they have done to me…nobody cares…not now not ever…I don’t want to spend the rest of my life alone…Life Sucks..Good-Bye Cruel World…time to follow the worms…..
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“…leaving me paralyzed from the waist down”
You still aren’t paralyzed from waist up.
“…since the shooting people,friends,have become only memories…I never get any visitors…”
Well, people have trouble with things they don’t know, understand – pain, sickness, disability, etc., so…
“…never get to celebrate holidays or birthdays”
And why you need, want to celebrate those things ?
“I have not been on a date for 15 yrs…since I cannot walk,girls are no longer interested”
Then try girls who can, in some way, understand your situation, that experienced some awful things in life too.
“I can no longer continue to live like this,total social seclusion”
Then don’t.
“I’m sorry people for whatever I did to deserve this…”
Probably nothing, that just life – good things happen to bad people, vice versa, and everything in between.
“I’ve ask old friends to dinner or even for help…excuses are always the choice…”
Then it looks like they weren’t “friends”.
“I don’t want to spend the rest of my life alone”
Then don’t.
“Life Sucks”
Yes is does. But not always.
Your insistance that there is no solution is the root of your problem(s).
Even Stephen Hawking was able to cheat on his woman. This isnt an IQ comparison, just an attitude one. Develop new habits 😉 You will have the results you seek, then.