Hi i’m new here, and uhm I don’t know exactly how this works. But it seems like a good way to just let out all of my anger and pain. So here goes nothing.
So I have a “Best Friend” whatever that is. We’ve been pretty close for a couple of years now. It was getting to the point where I actually trusted her. Which is crazy because I don’t trust many people. But now she has this new friend who she claims is her new “Best Friend”. Yes I was very jealous, but it’s not my fault. I’ve never had any one really care about me, so when she came it was awesome to know that someone would actually be upset or worried if something happened to me. She picked perfect timing too, because my uncle is back from New York …. (I’ll make a different post to explain him). This is when I really need her. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been cutting like crazy too. Like both of my arms are filled with cuts and I’ve recently started on my legs. It’s crazy how much you can enjoy hurting yourself. All I want is for ONE person to love me. I want to have someone who’ll give me a hug and tell me everything is going to be okay. (I sound like a little kid I know). But I guess I still have a long way to go. I mean i’m only 16. I just hope I don’t kill myself before I have the chance of meeting someone who genuinely cares about me, that would really suck.
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your day will come.
hang in there kiddo – and good luck to ya.
((((HUGS)))) I know what its like to feel like nobody cares. Just know one day you will find someone that does. Hope things get better soon! Good luck.