Hi everyone, I’ve never done this before and to be quite honest I’m pretty nervous to tell my story. My name is sarah and i am 17 years old and am about to graduate high school. I know what you’re thinking this girls about to graduate and hell will soon be over for her, think again 🙁 My pain began about half way through last year when one of my friends thought I was bitching about her behind her back. I would never do such a thing and honestly it hurt to think someone would accuse me of such a thing.
All my friends immediately took her side and turned on me, I had no one. That day i ran out of class in tears. I just couldn’t take it. Ever since I have never been accepted into my group and I have been used as a punching bag… I felt so worthless and for the most part, useless. Things took a turn for the worst in my senior year. I got a new job and my boss was so abusive to me, at first it was only emotional but it eventually turned physical. I would be randomly punched and slapped for simply being there. I felt like I was a pain. I told my parents and they told me to suck it up and it couldn’t be that bad… thats when i started cutting. Throughout the year my ‘best fried’ began to randomly hate me and became ‘popular’. At parties the would call me disgusting and ignore me completely. The cutting got worse and worse and I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. When I cut, it felt like my emotional pain would turn to physical pain and that physical pain so minor would only last such a short amount of time
Have I tried to commit suicide yet? No… but the strength behind that no is starting to dwindle away. With a best friend who treats me like a punching bag, a work place that physically abuses me and family that wouldn’t even say happy birthday to me… things are starting to get hard. Hopefully graduating will be a new start but something inside me doubts that.
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Suicide hotline could help advise you with things. I hope things look up for you. I’m in college right now and I’m struggling with depression but it’s only gonna get better if you try. Perhaps talk to your friends with how they make you feel. Make new friends if need be. Friends should never act like this to one another.
“All my friends immediately took her side and turned on me, I had no one.”
Then they weren’t your friends at all.
“I got a new job and my boss was so abusive to me, at first it was only emotional but it eventually turned physical.”
Report him – you’re a girl, and underage, that’s a PR nightmare for him (+ the criminal liability for abusing you), if done right.
Teen years suck, suck hard – you change, and people around you change, but it can get better, you just need to try, and live through it.
I’ve been in a situation similar to where a friend took sides with the popular group and betrayed me when I was younger, it has left me scarred forever. I know how much it hurts when people hate you for unjust reasons. This world is messed up in many ways.
I hope you keep your chin up, you sound a bit optimistic towards the end of your story. Please follow through with a new start. You’ll have a new way to make new friends and to abandon your past HS life. There is alot you can find in college! You just need to bare those idiots for a few more months until your graduate. You can do it.