One way out

I get 2 anon voicemails today telling me I should kill myself. 3 texts too. My head has been going through every possivle scenario, thinking about how I could do it. I don’t see my therapist for a week, and I physically cannot go back to the hospital. I would not recover this time. The only option is death. I can’t keep living like this, with people hating me, myself included.  With my life being slowly ebbed away by reality and sorrow. I’m one more breakdown from total psychosis. I have no where else to turn.