our greatest enemy

I just realized this. Maybe you guys understand. Sometimes, our greatest enemies aren’t our classmates, friends, family, or anyone else in this world.  My greatest enemy is no one but me.

I was in my school, watching my classmates perform on stage. Everyone was laughing and having fun together. There was so many people, i even new some of them and talked to them, but i still felt lonely and out of place. im the one who thinks this way. im the one who feels this way. everyones happy but me. i wish i could stop myself. i feel like im battling someone i dont know and cant see. that person is me, but im sick of her. shes always sad and depressed and judging me and beating me down. im so lonely. i get scared more often now, i dont want to go back to the way i was freshman year. freshman year was one of the worst.

i dont find anything funny or enjoyable anymore. i feel empty. i hate this. beware of apathy guys, its not all its cracked up to be. i wish i could go back in time before this all began, but i dont even know what my problem is anymore.

I love Papercut by Linkin Park. It’s one of the few songs i can really relate too.