I stumbled on this website when I was searching for methods. I wanted to know if overdosing hurts. Apparently, liver and kidney failure is extremely painful.
I’m ashamed of how weak I am, in fact I shouldn’t even be posting here. I don’t have the courage to kill myself. I don’t even have the courage to hurt myself. I can only imagine it. Meanwhile, there are people who have real problems, who cut themselves, or have attempted suicide. I feel like I can’t get help until I’ve done something to prove that I need it. Nobody, none of my friends or family, think I’m not ok, they don’t know how I suffer. I’m sure nobody would take me seriously, and I’ve hinted at it and nobody has taken me seriously. I need to have scars for people to believe me. I only have scars that aren’t visible, in my mind and existence.
In my mind, I don’t deserve help.
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Ok, so not exactly the best solution, but I went ahead and cut myself. I cut my thigh six times. Small cuts.
And I feel better. I did it, it happened, I’m not lying, it hurt, it’s real, I was bleeding.
Now, in my mind, I’m allowed to say I’m not ok.
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Anybody hurt physically or emtionally deserves help don’t think that you need scars to be takin seriously the scars will just add up and the pain will get even worse you shouldn’t have to go threw that no one deserves it in fact you’re not weak I would have to say your pretty strong to come here and just lay out how you feel for everyone to see if I could I will do whatever I can to help you regain your will to live and go on in life
Please don’t start cutting. I can promise you that is one of my biggest regrets in life. It is so hard to stop once you have started. Tell them flat out you need help. You can always message me if you need to. But I can promise you, cutting is not the answer. I have been trying to stop cutting for so long. It is something that never leaves you.
The thing that matters most is what you feel on the inside. It doesn’t matter why or how, but what. If you feel bad, then, as far as I’m concerned, you’re in the same boat as the rest of us. And like loneexperience said you are pretty strong, especially to tell your feelings to a random bunch of strangers. 🙂