What’s wrong with me?

I just don’t get what I’ve done..Maybe it’s cause I’m too needy.Maybe it’s cause I push everyone away when they are to close.Today I just looked at myself in the mirror and yelled.I let so many things I cared for leave me..they left me.But what did I do wrong?It was never like this since this summer it feels like I had everything ripped away from me.Im so alone in this world .Im still waiting for someone just to understand or possibly relate with what I’m going through and why everyone’s leaving me.Ive never felt my death wanting to happen so soon..