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how many tears i’ve shed until now?
how many nights i’ve been feeling this guilt of breaking this vow?
how many years i’ve wanted to convince to myself
that i’am still alive
not just breathing alive
sick of something called life
i struggle just to please my world
just to please my God
i’ve tried really hard not to cut myself
many times
i’ve promised that i wouldn’t
but sorry God,even if you are angry at me now
my demons has already ate my heart
my hand has been tainted by the crimson dye
my mind was eager to just feel a little of pain
to know and confirm that i’am still alive
how many whispers has penetrated my head
shouting aloud,why i’am still fighting?
i’am already dead!!
how sweet could be the devil hymn?
a requiem for my death,right??
words keep repeating and repeating:you are sick,you are dead
just stop clinging to this life
sorry my world for breaking my vows
sorry my God for breaking your laws
sorry my soul for sending you to hell in woe
i’ve already lost my sanity
i’ve already lost all of my heart
i’ve alreday seen the dead end of my life
being sick in mind,being sick in my thoughts
my demons has already won me as your foe