Well its my 3rd time researching ways to go. Just now I found the helium alternative wich sounds good.
as the title says im 27 I studied a diaploma of filmmaking but dont work on films, i record weddings and social events onces every few months. My parents pay all my expenses. I feel regret on not having studied a career. I could be working at a normal Job, and having a normal life.
Today I felt bad because my dad (who is not my real dad) Im son of a man who my mother has sex with who i dont know. well he reminded me I once told him I was gonna be someone in life, just wait and see. Years latter here I am a total fat slob who still lives of his parents.
If your situation is not like this you deserve to continue living. If worse maybe I’ll meet you on the next life. cheers.
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I’m pretty much the same, 25, no job, family helps me pay for a lot of stuff, overweight, unmotivated, etc. I never wanted to turn out this way, I started out really motivated and driven, but life kicked me in the teeth every time I tried to succeed, so I decided to just stop trying. But living like this really sucks so I’m trying to decide if I can find the energy to try again or if I’m going to end it.
I understand that it takes a lot of commitment to go through college so it must be frustrating to be where you’re at after it all. I’m currently attending my first year of college but I’ve always been hesitant about it because there are a lot of alternatives, although it’s common to see people act it’s the only option. If I’m ever at an extreme dead end I think I’ll just pack my bags and be a nomad or something. This way things around me are changing everyday and I don’t have to sit and dwell on things. You never know what you’ll find and then at least you’re still alive in case opportunity just happens to knock.
I don’t claim to know everything by any means, but I see where you’re coming from. I am also in my mid-twenties, unemployed, single, and live in my divorced mother’s basement. I hope things get better for both of us, we have a lot of life left to live. When things get overwhelming, I lock my door, turn off my phone and take a long nap. I too have researched suicide methods. Don’t let go, everyone can start over and be successful.
Its never too late to make changes to your life. Please don’t go through with it. You have people who will be hurting if you do this to yourself. Try and be strong for them. I know its hard. I have no desire to live. I wish everyday that I had died instead of my boyfriend but I keep living. Why? couldnt tell ya. i hurt all the time. I can tell you why I havent killed myself though. I dont want other people to hurt the way I hurt. I hope one day the hurt goes away but there are no guarentees. Life isnt fair, and I understand how it feels to feel like a waste but please at least reconsider it. Think about it longer. I dont even know you and I would care. You deserve to continue living
me neither… I was also motivated before, had a girl friend, I was doing ok I thought, but realized people much younger than me have good jobs and get paid well, some have already bought a car , got married. Anyway. Tnxs for the reply. I had never told anyone or wrote about my life.
ahp22,
You can Change things to if you want to try. I fight every day to do just that, I think everyone on here does that, start on a new career DON’T GIVE UP AND DON’T GIVE IN FIGHT!
I am 41 with no job or college degree and I deal with that on a daily basis. I’ve tried going back to school but I’m just so bad at it. Plus it’s very hard when you have major depression. I never know when I’m gonna have a break down that can disable me for months at a time. It sucks to to see everyone around me succeed . I have a girlfriend that recently got a job where she is making over 100,000 year. She has no college education. I can’t help to resent her. I know that sounds bad but I envy her for her strength because she is everything I wish I could be and I’m so far from it . It’s hard for me to be happy for her and I feel bad for feeling that way but its the truth. We just have to learn to love ourselves the way we are. There are other things were good at. We just have to find them. Good luck to all of us.