Wake again, feeling as empty as possible. Can’t go back to sleep to escape the feelings. Another completly pointless day awaits me. Can’t wait to sleep forever <3
sleeping is my favorite!!! i cherish my sleep and do so whenever possible. its a temperary solution. plus its good for the soul. people say i look 10 yrs younger than i actually am and i honestly think its because i sleep so much. i dont get much sunlight.
I wouldn’t say sleeping is all that enjoyable to me, its more of the not having to deal with the axeity, crazy thoughts and feelings, etc. Only time my mind gets a break. Waking up has turned into such a horrible feeling.
When I’m awake I feel like I’m in prison. And the prison is made of depression, sadness, anxiety and hopelessness. It’s hard to fall asleep. It’s hard to escape that prison. And when I finally get sleepy and know, that I’m going to fall aspeel any moment now, it feels like freedom. My mind has finally broken through the barrier of shit and allows my body to get some rest, just to start the whole thing all over again the next morning. I wish I could sleep any time. I just cant. I have slept about 10 hours total in the last two days.
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sleeping is my favorite!!! i cherish my sleep and do so whenever possible. its a temperary solution. plus its good for the soul. people say i look 10 yrs younger than i actually am and i honestly think its because i sleep so much. i dont get much sunlight.
I wouldn’t say sleeping is all that enjoyable to me, its more of the not having to deal with the axeity, crazy thoughts and feelings, etc. Only time my mind gets a break. Waking up has turned into such a horrible feeling.
blackhole,
me to it’s the only time i’m truly happy! i don’t know about my looks but i know i don’t at my age?
i emailed you rocketman….
thank you! blacky
When I’m awake I feel like I’m in prison. And the prison is made of depression, sadness, anxiety and hopelessness. It’s hard to fall asleep. It’s hard to escape that prison. And when I finally get sleepy and know, that I’m going to fall aspeel any moment now, it feels like freedom. My mind has finally broken through the barrier of shit and allows my body to get some rest, just to start the whole thing all over again the next morning. I wish I could sleep any time. I just cant. I have slept about 10 hours total in the last two days.
I really understand what you’re saying.