Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
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this has been my song for the last two weeks, I’ve gone back to cutting, and smoking. my life is spiralling downward, my best friend is gone. people act like I don’t exist, when I smile and wave at them, they pretend they don’t see me and act as if I was not there, why should I exist if people don’t want to acknowledge me? I’ve carried around this weight inside of me for a long time, ever since I was a kid. I’ve been sick for awhile, is it morbid that sometimes I wish I had something terminal that would take my life so I wouldn’t have to? I guess I’m a coward that way.
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my wrist hurts where I cut it, but it makes me feel here, like the pain connects me to the world or life. I’ve probably questioned myself alot over the past years, but now, I just feel like I don’t belong here anymore. I know I’m not the only one and that calms me, I’m not the only one who feels similiar to this. I’m not the only one who feels this empty.
3 comments
But you don’t HAVE to feel this way, imsodone. Because things CAN get better. Even if you have one arm, no legs, deafness and no way of reproduction, you could still write a book or something that could make somebody happy. Someone out there could still need you! As long as you’re still alive, you can make changes.
Also, you don’t have to cut. There are other ways that can help you cope. Even better in fact. Things that connect you to the world all the same 😀
You echo so much of what i feel and how saw my life is…how its falling apart…I dropped out of college. No friends. I havent cut in so long….like a month….grrr…anyway hi…hello stranger. Oh and I have loved this song since the day I heard it on cyberbully. Well id ask if you want to talk with me but i dont know :c
I can talk to you, AtTheEnd. 🙂 I can be here for you.
It’s so good you haven’t cut! And a month! You’ve been so strong! Many would’ve given up already. But not you. 😀 That’s good, keep it going! Do alternative things that could help you cope. I like reading psychology books and taking small walks outside to pick flowers or make mini-snowmen. It helps me to cope. Maybe they can help you too?
And dropping out of college isn’t the end of everything. You can try again or try some different route. There’s ALWAYS an option. 🙂