“You’re the nicest guy I’ve ever met”. Or so I’ve been told many many times. If only I had a nickel for every time I was called a sweetheart.
I have no real friends. And the “friends” that I do have, only use me for a ride or to do favors for them. I sit at home with my annoying father all day and night, doing nothing.
I use to have a job, but I got fired by my own brother who was my boss. Now I’m jobless, and no one wants me to work for them since I am given the title as a level 1 registered sex offender.
I let a minor suck me off. I even made sure she wanted to do it, and she did. I felt so ugly, and so unwanted that I selfishly accepted her requesting on wanting to do it. She then bragged around school she got with an older guy, and now I’m facing 10 years probation. I can’t smoke weed. I can’t play xbox live. I can’t go to the movies. Three things that actually make me happy!
I’ve had sex only twice in the last year and a half. I feel pathetic at the age of 23 and will never get a girl. I can count the number of girls I had sex with on one hand, and yet I’m labeled as a sexual predator to society. This is so unfair!
I have no job. I have no money. I have no friends. I’m hideous looking. I have no girl. And I’m a sex offender and will never get a good paying job.
I know suicide is a selfish thing to do, but why should I live life like this and watch everyone else be happy?
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Well, so you fucked up…big time. This was a test and now you have to over come the obstacles. Lets look at all the things you can do: you can still get an education, witch is the most important thing you can do for yourself, there are jobs out there where you can get a job , maybe not the highest paying, but that’s what school is for. There are ways around this. Life doesn’t just end because of your boo boo. There’s a lot of people out there in your exact situation…they keep going, they make things happen and that’s what you have to do. Quit feeling sorry for yourself and make something of yourself. There’s mores to movies and playing video games… Trust me, video games? You need to look at the big picture. You can still make a life for yourself , my best advice to you is Go BACK TO SCHOOL!!!! No more dwelling on your mishaps,I’ve forward and live your life. You think your the only one as a sex offender? No. Move past this and make something of yourself!! You can do it!
Shit man… I can relate to this. I’m in a decent place in life right now but I just really feel that whole “unwanted” thing… sometimes it makes me think about doing things, you know? I’m shit scared I’ll wind up in your situation. Feels like there have been a couple of close calls 🙁 Maybe us “nice guys” really do finish last…
i cant say that i know what youre going through, but i can say that i know what it feels like to want to die… being a sex offender is probably a really fucking hard thing to deal with, regardless to the reasons why.. but blackhole is right, there is still so much that you can do with your life. move out of your home, go on welfare, apply to school and apply for scholarships. school is hard but so is life.. sometimes it seems like there is no point at all to life, and others it feels like youre at the top of the world.. what you need to do is let yourself live. i mean sure you have limitations, but so does everyone. go to the bar, make some friends, get out of the house and go for a walk. listen to music, or read a good book. there are so many other things that you can do with your life.
goodluck and keep fighting, its a war and we have to fight to stay alive…
You can’t be that pathetic. Girls don’t suck off pathetic boys, I wouldn’t think. Most of us have done something really stupid when we were young. I was just lucky I didn’t get pregnant at 16. So, you are only 23 and I know your life feels like it’s not going anywhere and you feel stuck. Don’t give up! Think about what you want out of life, what you want to be. Find out what you need to do to get there. Don’t let one mistake rule your entire existence at this early stage of your life. You will look back on this later as a foible, a stupid thing you did and learned from. The only person holding you back right now is really just you! Go for what you want. Make yourself a good life! Stop thinking you are bad from one mistake! Many of us have made a life of mistakes! Don’t be like that! Believe me, it could be way worse.
Oh yes, and by the way, you are obviously intelligent, able to make sentences and use proper grammar and punctuation. Not something one can say for every 23 year old these days.
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