For Those Who Care~

Dear Everyone Who Cares To Read,

Maybe it’s goodbye, maybe it’s not. But things happen, I know this, a little too well. I’m not old enough to have my life lost, but it feels like I’ve been through too much for my age also. My heart races every moment, and I get this sense that someone or something is watching me. I’ve had trauma happen when I was younger. I’ve been to a Crisis Unit, it didn’t do much.

All of you out there, you’re all strong. But I’m not anymore. I’ve lost it. Bit by bit, I’ll get weaker. One more trigger. Gone —

Three. —

One. Two. Three. — Gone.

I know I can’t do this. I KNOW IT. My mind is driving my crazy. I CAN’T. It’s not worth it. It’s NOT. My heart is racing so fast. I CAN’T.

Breathe. Just breathe. NO. One more night. One more hour. I don’t care anymore.

People around me, sure. They’ll care. But they don’t understand. I’M LOSING IT.

If you’re still there, which I doubt, don’t turn into me.

Don’t let this monster tame you. It’s too late for me. I can’t. I’m lost. I’m one. You can show many. I promise you, it gets better.

Hold on. This ride is rocky, but it’ll be a fun ride.

The Monster Is Inside YOU. It’s in all of us.

I’m trying to help, but I’m losing it. . . I’m losing. . . it. . .

Goodbye, everyone.

This was a nice day.

And I’ll be back. You’ll know when.

Until then, Stay strong.